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I’m just tired of being alone. Even when I try new things I feel empty because I have no one to experience life with.

I feel disappointed as soon as I wake up in the morning. I've confided in my family and they've made it very clear that either I get admitted somewhere or get over it. So I'm trying to get help here. I'm tired. I'm tired of pushing through, because it never feels like its enough. I'm tired.

I am just tired. I am too numb to even properly cry. I lost people I care about because of my depressive episodes. I just want to fade away, to let the pain of this life be over, to let the next reincarnation take place. I was not depressed for a few months now it is worse than ever.

I am so tired of all my damn mental health symptoms and having to struggle through the damn day - every day. I am tired of merely existing. I am tired of filling my day with pointless things, every day joyless. I am tired of just surviving the damn day, enduring it, only to go to sleep and wake up and do it all again - where is any meaning? I am tired of being in pain, physical and emotional. I am so damn tired of fighting so hard to heal from my trauma stuff that it upsets my whole life and makes me even crazier than I would be without trying to deal with all this. I am tried of this dissociation crap - I do not know who I am anymore. I am tired of not connecting to myself or anyone or anything else. I am sick and tired of all this crap.

I am tired of being sick and tired of this.

I just can't take it anymore. I'm so tired of letting people I'm my life and being dissapointed. I just feel like screaming and I can't. I'm tired of always crying and I'm tired of carrying so much pain with me. People make thing so hard. I know I'm not special and everyone has their own issues. It just so hard. Why do people always leave me? I really try to care for others but maybe it's not enough. Why am I so weak? Why do I let other people break me down so much? I feel like there is a hole in my soul, a black hole of fucking emotions I always get sucked into. I can't stop crying and I'm exhausted. I just want to be okay and not to feel hurt. Please god, the universe or whatever, GIVE ME A BREAK. Again sorry to you all, I have so many blessings and I'm too fucking weak and self absorbed in my emotions. I wish everyone love and happiness and not to go through a fraction of pain I've experienced continuously for over a decade. I'm tired of trying to give so much love and feeling like I get nothing in return. Maybe I'm the problem. I can't do this anymore.

I just want this pain to end. I don't want to feel pain and hurt anymore. I don't want people to leave me and throw me away. I feel like maybe I deserve it almost. I just want to stop crying and feel okay. I feel myself regressing and I can't do this anymore. It's too much, I want to not feel this anymore.

Hello all. I have had depression for years, as well as other, more difficult to determine issues. I can't seem to stop hating myself. I can't seem to stop being a horrible person to my loved ones. I have never had a long term lover, because I don't honestly believe I deserve one.

In the end, I feel like the only reason I am surviving is by inertia.

Find 1 thing that work. Focus on that one thing. I know you're extremely nervous. I get it. You can be extremely nervous and do a presentation and answer questions and direct attendees to answer and do work. You got this. I believe in you.

I'm tired. I'm always tired. I can't remember the last time I wasn't. Physically I'm okay, I can live my life and so my job and everything but I always feel so exhausted.

I've been depressed for maybe about 15 years and nowadays it's not that bad, like I don't call in sick because of it or anything. But I'm so tired of Being tired all the time. Sleep doesn't help. Well if I don't sleep and am also physically tired I'm just absolutely miserable, but still.

I've had blood tests done and everything and they've all been fine.

Hi, feeling so unsupported right now. Professionals turning my cry for help away :/ unfortunately it's happened a lot. There's so much going on for me right now, and I'm fought all the way on it by different quarters. I need so much therapy to get over the therapy. Such a counter intuitive thing to have to say, Sucks. So discouraged. It's so depressing.