i’m new
not too sure how this works. a friend/classmate of mine recommended this since i’m not 100% into going back into talk therapy. it feels like things are getting worse, so here i am, i guess.
it feels like i haven’t felt genuinely happy in a long time. it’s like all the happiness i do get is “temporary” and then i get stuck in my head and start spiraling over and over. i have not-so-great thoughts and feelings that make me scared of myself. i don’t talk about these things in real life because i don’t want to scare the few people i have around me. a huge part of me is thinking that i don’t have much time left.
i guess i’m just looking for some form of escape or somewhere i can vent without feeling judged. just something that will let me get my thoughts out.
@minecraftdirt
I am here to listen. Hopefully, along the way, I can help you smile more. We need someone special to talk to and grow with that gets us and not have us feel ashamed for being who we are.
Have a beautiful day love.
thank you. i’m gonna try to do my best today. i just wanna feel like i’m worth being alive.
The feeling of pushing away the people you have around you is a fear that most of us probably face how can we look at someone and explain to them a feeling that we barely understand ? @minecraftdirt you are NOT alone and you won’t push me away let’s work through this together 🤞🏾
thank you for your response. i appreciate it. i’m gonna try to make it through the day.
@minecraftdirt
is there anything specifically you are doing, to help you feel better with your thoughts and feelings?
i actually went to get a psych evaluation done this weekend and was a patient at a psych unit for a few days. they were able to diagnose me and put me on meds. they’re also going to connect with my school to help me find a psychiatrist/therapist.
i usually cope by playing video games, listening to music, watching shows, or going to the gym, but i find myself wanting to hang out with people and not being alone. but it’s hard to do that since i don’t have many friends close by, so i spend a lot of time alone which contributes to my feelings and thoughts. i’m still learning how to be okay with being alone and doing things by myself, but i’m going to try and reach out to people and start doing things with them so i don’t feel alone. i can be alone for long periods of time, but feeling alone is what i’m tired of.