I feel I'm just a burden
I feel like I'm nothing but just a burden on my parents. I'm just a disappointment for them. They never said that but I feel it. I'm so angry on myself for being like this. But I can't tell them what I'm going through right now I'm so exhausted both mentally and physically. Feeling so much depressed, exhausted that I dont feel like living anymore. I want to achieve so many things in this life but dont know how I'm going to do that. At this point I dont have any path, guide, or anyone to guide me, tell me what should I do to feel better and find the purpose of my living. I talked to my mom that I want to take counseling sessions from therapist but she thinks only those people take therapy who are mentally ill. And that's why I stopped telling them that how low and depressed I feel even if I smile, laugh or talk normally everyday. Also I don't have single friend to whom I can share want I feel. As I have no one to tell what I want to say I'm writing here. Also I would like to talk with kind people here.
@gentleBlueberry6881
Sometimes when we are depressed or confused / frustrated or all of the above talking to someone can help. I found in both as a child talking to my parent and later as a parent nothing is so bad to not reach out. Parents understand more than many think. Parents were young before and most likely have had similar situations or feelings. other adults can help as well, maybe a teacher or other family. My first boss at a job was very helpful in talking to me about life choices too.
Feeling lost not knowing what you may want to do or how to get started is normal.
I found we need to be on the lookout for mentors or examples to follow...... they do not show up to our door and seek us out. A real mentor can help us see a path but if you want someone to tell you what to do or each step you would be going down their path not yours.
Try as many things as possible apply to things you have interest in ... the biggest regret in life are the things we did Not try when we had a chance.