I suck

Please excuse me. I didn't know where to vent, vent someplace where someone on this huge blue earth could read what i have in mind. I tried finding a listener but he was just, desperate? I don't know. Don't wanna know. Maybe it's just me being a pessimist finding faults in everything around me including myself. No I'm not conceited either. I don't know what i am. All i know is I'd rather starve myself to death than to speak a word against someone and depreive then of a grain even if they have food in abundance. I'm beating around the bush. Yes, this is what I do. I don't know who to trust what to do. I'm not here for sympathy either, last thing I'd ask for. I'll find peace in the fact that I'm posting this, I've put it out there, i tried. Yes that's progress. This is boring to read, just like me and my personality .. hahaha. Nevermind. Have a great day y'all. All lovex♥️