Erratic
Hi,
Ive been diagnosed with depression and anxiety and have been on an SSRI since march, in July I got bumped up to the full tablet as I was taking a half tablet for a while due to anxiety about nausea and other symptoms.The past few days, almost a week I have been feeling off. I cant focus at all in class, Im constantly moving and wandering around my campus unable to relax or sit down for long periods of time. I cant stop drawing (Im an artist but before this I wasnt drawing nearly as much) and have been obsessing about my worldbuilding more than usual. I want to say I feel erratic, my boyfriend can sense my energy through the flood of texts I keep sending him. I feel like Im buzzing with energy and cant stop for long. My mind and body feel like theyre on two different levels (physical body feels hunger, but mentally I feel no need to eat, although I still eat eventually). I constantly have thoughts about acting on impulse, like I want to do something illegal/bad or run away to the city and get lost in the crowd where nobody can find me. While I am sleeping at night, my mind constantly wants to stay awake until the point where my body is too tired to do so, at which point my mind is frustrated I couldnt stay up all night to work on projects. I cant stop moving/flapping my hands, rocking, or other odd behaviors (like not stepping on cracks on the sidewalks). I even started cackling last night in the shower for no apparent reason, not sure why. I dont know what to do. I need to get myself together but I just cant, I feel like Im spiraling into an artificial euphoria and I cant tell if its the meds or something else.
@silentmutt Could be the meds, I suppose, but I am not an expert. Your description sounds like the way people describe mild mania (hypomania). If you really did stay up all night and run away to the city that would be more like full mania, I think. Going back to whoever prescribed the meds and complaining about all this seems like it could be a good idea.
Charlie