How to deal with disinterest in everything?

I have a disintrest in my ex I hate being bothered

I usually feel disinterested or numb when it's been a bad day. I've found sleep helps a lot and sometimes I'll just force myself to do things.

Soooo, either I'm really losing it or I'm an attention whore. Or both.

My work environment sucked. I drove for an hour in traffic, worked all day, and drove 1.5 hours in traffic back home. Eat, sleep, rinse, repeat. No growth.

My depression and anxiety kicked in hard. I went home sick 1/24 and I haven't gone back. I sit alone every day isolated. I sometimes go days at a time without seeing another human being.

I start group therapy and my meds are being adjusted, but I'm broke as hell. I make great pay for the meaningless job, but that's it. The rest of it is soul killing and the sociopathic toxic narcissist I report to makes me want to shoot myself.

Anyway. That's all

I just miss him so much but he wasn't good for me and now I feel alone without my best friend.I had to let him go in order to get my life and now I just have to see the positives in it and become happy again.

First, I sleep. Take my meds. Try to get out of bed. Make a game out of it.

How does one deal with waking up in the morning and going through the whole day only looking forward to going to sleep...

Really hard to cop with this symptom of depression. I feel lonely and alone because I don't have interest in knowing people, I used to love reading but no longer now, I use to have a lot of dream but now I just live like a zombie, existing and that's all. My job is boring and even it suitable for my case, I want to leave it now because it is boring, I have no motivation to do.

How to cop with it. My current solution is just force myself do things, block me in a fix time and do things, that is how time past. As long as I don't have to socialize, I'm fine.

Excuse for my poor English, I'm learning it.

Sometimes when I don't feel like doing anything I do something I have done a lot of times before, like play a song I know well (I play guitar). Sometimes this sparks a little bit of interest and I'll want to play another song or start learning a new song, at least for a few minutes. I think it works bc the muscle memory of playing the song was set in my brain at a different time in my life and it sort of wakes up a path that has been unused for a while. Idk if other things besides playing music can do that, maybe dance or a physical activity or game that took a long time to learn?

I keep trying to do things that I really don't feel like doing. I have done the opposite of some of the other posters. I have taken to reading, but it's almost like a drug. I'm reading 3 books a day, but I'm feeling completely unsatisfied while and after I'm done reading them. I'm in search of something to spark that interest and kill off the disinterest

I am full of disinterests

my dad

drama and I haven't catches up on anything I haven't had time to myself

I am overwhelmed overloaded scared uspet angry and not cared for it hurts