One thing that triggers my depression is....
College burnout and unpaid internship
Death of my best friend
When Im stressed out about my future self thinking that Im not doing anything productive
When someone I am close to gets a bf/gf and closes me out. Or gerally when people close me out and act like they no longer need me.
@KatTheAmazingest I had that happen to me a lot because all of my friends and family settled down before me .. it took me a while to realize Im my best friend and I need to treat myself like it! Moved on and make new friends and focus on myself, on my success... support groups help a lot in this situation! Hope you feel better soon!
when someone hurts me and i cant tell if it was an accident or not
hurts me emotionally i mean @sadtiredkid
When the memory of a particular past hurt surfices.
@scipioc I go through the same thing... a therapist can help on this situation Im in the process of getting one. Re living certain things can be painful.
Remember my school days. It still makes me so unhappy
Stress because of all the school work I have to get done. My misophonia uses wears me out and then my depression kicks in after I finally manage to calm down. Sad music, sad movies. Thinking about my family who kind of disowned me. Thinking about how depressed I am. My anxiety makes me anxious then depressed. When I think about how long it took me to fight off depression the first time, I don
Seeing myself in the mirror and realizing how disgusting I look, and I just remember that there is no way I could be pretty. I don
im tired of this emptiness inside me. The only time i feel any emotions it last for a few mins and is gone, replcaed by what feels like a black hole in my chest sucking away everything i feel. I hate being like this i cant enjoy anything in life, it effects my work,my relationship, my life. Gaming or reading use to distract me and give me enjoyment. Now even thats gone im 24 and have been like this since i was in middle school. My few "friends" i tried to talk to for help didnt care or acted like they did just went and talked crap about it to others. I've had thoughts of suicide but i wouldnt do that to people that know me, i dont want them to feel the pain i feel. I used to cut myself to relive pain or make me feel better. i stopped but i cant go back to that again.
I just want to be normal. I want to be able to have feelings and not be a cold emotinal being. please does anyone have any advice or somthing i can do to fix me.
@Chronolock I will give you my advice since I want to help. Try doing all sorts of things to get your emotions back. You said gaming and reading something like that have given you enjoyment. Maybe do something related to that, and make your own productions about them. Having people understand you through your work can help. If you want to, find a reliable person to talk to. I am 7 years younger than you, so I can't really give you much advice about life. Give me some feedback if you want. I am here to listen.
@Chronolock if this has been going on years, like you said, i really suggest seeking professional help. maybe youve already tried it but if you havent, i really encourage you to take a step in that direction. it can be hard at first to open up to someone but the key is to persevere. it can really really help you with learning how to better cope and manage with everything youre going through. its amazing that youre in a place where you feel safe in yourself but if you ever feel like you are a danger to yourself, please contact a your country's or state's suicide helpline or phone the police. and if you ever feel the urge to self harm, the app calm harm is great for getting through or you can check out some of these alternate methods: ithurtssomuch.tumblr.com/selfharm
generally, id suggest booking an appointment with your gp and talking to them about how youre feeling. from there, they can make a referral and recommend therapists and psychiatrists who may be able to help you.
wishing you all the best and a full recovery, emily
@Chronolock
i feel the exact same way as you. it also affects my everyday life my relationship everything. i want to be normal too but im not sure how and im not sure how to fix this feeling.. feeling empty and lost for so long.. it sucks.