One thing that triggers my depression is....

Thinking about life tbh

him and the sense of always being alone

My sudden lose of hope, thoughts like what if I'm being delusional and everything that I've planned is not practical, what if i would end up at back to point 1? These negative thoughts kills my will power.

Whenever I make a mistake or do something stupid. I lose all faith in myself and never get over it.

Remembering how much I dissapoint those around me

things I can't possibly change, and the constant reminder that I'm not like everybody else and I'll probably never fit in.

When I feel all the pain that consumed me for the past years of my existence, when everything I ought to forget suddenly comes crawling back right when I'm falling apart

Being uncomfortable as myself.

(wearing dresses, having long hair, using make-up etc)

Never having a girlfriend

Hormone fluctuations in perimenopause!