New to group

@willingPlace1134
Hi there and welcome to 7 Cups, we are glad you are here. It can be difficult sometimes to open up while experiencing what you are feeling and going through, thank you for stopping by and sharing a little bit. It can help sometimes too, possibly, just opening up and getting that out and sharing with others, like here. How are you feeling today?

You mentioned you are newer here, just in case you have come across these yet, here are some really great places that can be a really great start on a journey of healing here:
A free wellness test - to see where you are at and it will pop up to recheck every once in a while to help gauge where you are.
support guides so much great information in these, I highly recommend stopping out here if you haven't already.
In particular, I might highlight the following:
https://www.7cups.com/depression-help-online/
https://www.7cups.com/hope-training/