a little poem with my feelings .... it was quick to write it so it isn't well put together sorry
i look out the window and think
"if it was over would there be any pain left"
i wish it was over
the pain
the thoughts
the loneliness
the insanity
all you can do is think and think
no matter how much you cry and sleep ,the pain wont go away
i dont think this therapy will help
how could it possible help
this insanity has been going on for so long
you can help the people that just started before they die inside
before they get so hurt
but,
you cant fix or help me
ive been long gone for a very long time
im on the edge
they say there is always help
but
if you dont want it because you dont deserve it
it wont work ever
im not able to be helped anymore
if you were there a few years ago it would be different
but now its not
i hold onto the past but it wont come back
the people i had
the friends
all gone...
i didnt realize what i had...
i used to think it cant get worse but it has
i cant take this anymore ........
Hi there imsorryitry,
Thanks very much for sharing with us, it's very brave to share your feelings and the work articulates how you feel very well.
I can relate to how you're feeling, having been diagnosed with depression some time ago and going through similar struggles. I know right now it might not feel like it, but things can get better. With the help of a professional, and the support of your loved ones and this community, you can take the small steps needed to overcome this time. Eventually, you might look back on these times and know how far you've come. Hang in there, and keep reaching out. You're doing great. <3