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Hey everyone. I'm a teen struggling with depression, self-harm and suicidal thoughts. I'm not sure when this all started but a pretty long while ago. I just lost the motivation to do anything, and I'm not sure what to do about it, but it's really interfering with my studying and relationship and just with life in general.
I just feel hopeless. I find it pretty hard to enjoy all my hobbies or talking to people since it just feels like nothing really ends up mattering in the end because I'll just die, no matter how hard I try to be motivated and feel happy I just can't. I have no plans for the future, and i can't imagine myself doing anything apart from eventually killing myself.
I have friends and people who care about me and my life isn't bad but it feels like friends are pretending to like me or just tolerating me even though i know they aren't but I can't stop feeling this way. I just want to cry sometimes and I don't know why, even when everything is okay and I'm meant to be happy and everything great. Does anyone else struggle with things like this? And what do you do about it? I'm always here to talk.
im finally trying to improve and i have no idea who to talk to so im here. thanks!
@peach I completely understand how you feel and what your going through. I know what it feels like to have depressive thoughts and it taking over you. Im also a very negative person which makes my depression worse but it's been past events what's made me feel that way. I don't know if you can sympathize with that but it is hard work to have those thoughts all the time.
I'm sorry your going through more then just depression. It can't be easy for you. I don't know what makes you feel suicidal but I know your not on your own. Sorry if I said that word. I know having little motivation to do things is another thing I can understand cuz depression takes up all your energy. You mentioned relationships? What goes on in your relationship? Is it a bad one?
As I'm going through similar I don't know if I have much advice to say the least but with me I try and look forward to something new everyday. The more feel good things you do the better you feel. It is hard at first. However setting mini goals instead can help you to feel good in the long run. Have you considered therapy? Talking to someone about these emotions? Do you feel aswell you have little self confidence? Cuz I know that's another problem I have to which I'm trying to work on.
Right now you should try and focus on what makes you happy and see if there's anything what gives you pleasure. I would start with your thoughts first. I would suggest a journal and writing down how you feel on daily basis see if anything comes up as a pattern what triggers these thoughts, the way you feel before and after and how it effects you. Once that you can start thinking of ways what can help you in those situations. Maybe do a bit of research about negative thoughts and what things can help.
I'm glad you got friends and family. I know they arnt the most easy people to talk to but you know they are there. There maybe a family member or friend you talk to the most. Would you be able to share your feelings with them?
Also remember if you need more help 7 cups is always open and people are there to help.
Please think of the things I said and what might help.
