Weekly check in
It's a hard week. Watching my peers and those that are younger than me getting "farther" in life. Getting their own apartments, having kids, taking road trips, getting promotions. Meanwhile you're sick being somewhere between sick and healthy. Having the desire to move out and be independent while knowing that right now you can't because of your health. Having people say that you're the kindest person and so tough because if others went through what I went through that they wouldn't be here. Meanwhile knowing that you are exhausted from fighting, you want to give up, but don't because you can't bare the thought of putting the people in your life through that. It's been maintaing a smile on the outside while wanting to it to end on the inside.
@braveBeach7465 aw I can relate to some of this 🥺 I'm sorry you are struggling so much
Seeing others do better and feeling that pang of low self worth is vvv valid, it's human nature and we are all sadly really tied into the hustle culture, a race to succeed, and where success is something "seen" or measurable like getting a degree, a job or a house etc people overlook that on days one wants to end things they hold on and keep going at it ... that's success too ... braving own mental health and tough situations
keep hanging there and doing your best ok?
there's no timeline, you can do things when you're ready for them <3
