it's a number. jesus, that's all it is ._. . my number changes all the time. i get concerned with how underweight i am, but i don't stress over it. i remind myself that i'm beautiful, i'm okay, and that this number is not all i am. i have my personality, i have my looks, and spirit. the world is not over, and i can change this number. i fix myself. i eat protein, more fulfilling healthy meals, etc. i have doubts about myself, i feel like this fat pig whenever i eat sweets, but i remind myself the doctor said i was fine, people said i have a perfect weight, and i am okay in the scale. i just need the reminders, the right food and exercise, therapy along the way also helps. for all of you struggling with weight, please pay attention to this especially : you are not what a number says. don't define yourself by one. your number is literally 1/31 of what you are, it shouldn't take 31/31 of your mind. you can always change this number, don't give up on any goal or vision you have. stay strong, you're all fab :3
It means I need to keep working hard, and actually get on some sort of system so I will lose weight. I constantly feel heavier than I am, despite people telling me I look beautiful, sexy, attractive, and healthy. I do not feel that way, and want to improve on my body so I can feel comfortable in my own skin.
To me, the number on the scale is something I am constantly working to change. It dictates success for me and my worth as a person. I am feeling like I am never good enough; I need to lose more weight to be closer to perfection. It drives me crazy.
I personally never have counted calories or even weighed myself on the scales - I only check the scales once every year haha. But the numbers don't mean anything. I looked at certain traits instead. I have a BMI of 16 - but I don't care. I want a flat stomach, a thigh gap, hip bones, cheek bones. I don't care if I'm 60 pounds or 150 - as long as I have those traits I'm happy. But I'm going to change that - I don't want to be controlled by my flaws, I'm going to accept all my perfections and imperfections rather than try to change them.
It means progress, working towards my goal. But it can sometimes mean shame, just depends on what my mood is when i step on
It means the difference between a good or a bad day it determines my worth it determines whether or not I feel triggered to purge that day. I am working on changing all these things because I know it's wrong to think this way but it's been one of the hardest parts of my recovery.
I'm not a huge fan of mathematics, but I would love and hate to thank it for teaching me how to count. I feel like all I do is count numbers, and it's has turned into a dangerous game of how low can you go? can I weigh even less? can I eat even less? the only exception to this rule is how long I exercise. Can I do it even longer? faster? The number on the scale determines my self worth. The lower it goes, the happier I am. And sometimes that's a scary thought in the middle of the night.
The number on the scale scares me, but I need to know it. I get so much anxiety around that number. I no longer own a scale, but one of my roommates does and sometimes late at night I want so badly to sneak down and look at my number.
The numbers mean all. Means if Im having a good day or a bad day. It is my worth, it is a disappointment and at the same time, a moment to be proud
It means that I need to try harder