Relapse (TW DO NOT READ IF VOMIT IS TRIGGERING)

I understand unfortunately. I had been well for ten years and then had one of the worst years this past year. I was diagnosed with cancer, gained weight and came spiraling down to this place again. Someone just told me about this group when I shared I was struggling. The struggle is real. I try to have conversations with God to keep from even starting the binging part in hopes that it helps. I am so critical of my body right now

@goldenOrange2931 - *BIG HUGS* that's a pretty scary place to be and I know a LOT of feelings can come up with it. I've been there, and for me the most important thing was to acknowledge it, understand why it happened and how I might be able to avoid it in the future, and then forgive myself and move forward. Ultimately, while slips or relapses aren't a good thing, they don't have to be a complete slide back into where you were - you still have all the things you learned from the period of recovery and all the days that you didn't purge where you were making healthy choices. This can be one day out of a long recovery if you let yourself move forward from it instead of letting it pull you back.

In order to help avoid it in the future, what do you think triggered the relapse? What made you feel it was necessary? Were there any signs earlier that might have pointed to going in this direction? How could you deal with those things differently in the future or stop before you get there with support?