Diagnosis experiences

After searching through threads and doing some chatting I thought writing this would be good for some answers.

For a little background info: I was very overweight in middle school. 8th grade year I almost cut food entirely and lost almost [edited by 24Help1 7/1/20 for weight] pounds in a few months. This never put me underweight, but I lost my period. Throughout highschool, I always had this fear of going back to the way I was. I'd be on the scale at least twice a day, and always monitor what I was eating. I'd never usually eat more than one meal a day, but I'd go through periods of not eating anything because the anxiety was too much. If I felt I ate too much or gained weight, I would get very upset and anxious. All I had were these voices telling me "you're gonna go right back to where you were". I was a competitive cheerleader in highschool, and although that never put pressure on me for weight, it gave me a lot of exercise that kept me in shape. When you leave a sport like that, it's very common to gain weight since your body is not getting the exercise it's used to. I gained weight, and ever since then I've been freaking out. Little by little I've gone deeper and deeper, but this isn't the first time, it just feels normal. I recently started seeing a therapist, and she has raised concerns about possibly having an ED. I can't imagine what would happen if I'm diagnosed, everything would have to change, and I really don't think it needs to.

what are some other experiences? Thx 😊