Eating disorder
I don’t really know how to say this, but I have an eating disorder. For me, eating is not synonymous with happiness. My relationship with food has been complicated since I was little. I was always a bit overweight, and people made comments about it, often in a joking manner, but it hurt me. I lost weight, and people congratulated me, but it was never enough, and I don’t think it ever will be in my eyes.
I set challenges for myself, like not eating for a certain amount of time, or when I’m feeling mentally unwell, forcing myself to eat a certain amount of food and then vomiting on purpose. I feel like it’s a vicious cycle that will never end. I feel like no one help me or noticing but they all know . I wish it’s have an end and I wish will we all find it.
@Zaturnx
I'm really glad that you posted. There are so many here who are going through similar experiences, and who have gone through similar experiences.
It sounds like you are feeling really discouraged and frustrated right now. It's understandable with what you are going through.
What have you been doing or tried to deal with your eating disorder? Do you have anyone who is supportive of you or helpful to you with your eating disorder? In your post it sounded like people know but aren't very helpful. Is there anyone who has been supportive or you think might be supportive if you asked them to help you?
@Zaturnx
Oh love... I am so sorry to read this. I can feel your pain, as it matches my own.
Do you have anyone you can speak with, when you feel your thoughts getting out of control?
If not, please do not hesitate to DM me. I am not a therapist or a listener or anything like that. But I understand what you're going through, and we could help one another and support each others' knowing we really understand what's on our minds, without any judgment.
Thinking of you!
I am here to help you, it is a slow process with many ups and downs, but if you want, talk to me and we will try it together.
Yeah it's same for me as well
Yeah it's same for me as well
