Forced recovery
Forced recovery is the worst thing u can do to some it makes they Ed 1000 times worst and when that number on the scale goes up it feels like your whole world crashes.
I feel you. I feel like I was kind of forced into treatment by my professionals at a mental health IOP. They basically told me I had no choice but to leave. They don't treat eating disorders, which makes sense. They didn't have trained professionals to help. So I was sent to a treatment center and I just dissociated my way through the program just to get out. I was only mechanically eating at the point my insurance cut me and said I was fine. I was very treatment resistant in therapy but was eating my meals. But I guess that classifies as fine. My ED flared really bad when I was then returned home and had freedom again. I got so much worse than I was. I'm still so much worse. But I'm working on healing from what that did to me. I'm eventually going to go back to treatment but it's gonna take me a minute. I need time to process the last few months. So @discreetPomegranate1970 I get you.