Idk what to do
I'm scared of getting better because I'm finally the way I want to be but I know I need to and I promised someone I like alot I would
@T3ddyp1ck3r I think you've got to remind yourself of your true values here and be honest- it's the eating disorder that likes how you are now and it is trying to keep you stuck. That's not what YOU really want. If you can't find the internal motivation, get better for the person you like. They'll be there for you no matter what you look like if they are a keeper.
@T3ddyp1ck3r
I know it's scary to think about getting better. I would guess you're experiencing fear of what will happen, all the work involvedd, the intensity of going without the ED, and how you'll manage without the rules that help you manage related to your eating disorder.
Right now it can be so overwhelming, but you are worth the work you put into it, and when it's scary and overwhelming, I agree with holding on and doing it initially for your friend and then work on doing it for you as you gain strength. Just by posting, I imagine that a part of you wants it too. What do you think will help you on this journey of healing?
