Needed to get something of my chest
May be triggering - kind of just needed to get it off my chest but honestly i feel like crap, sorry that it’s so long
One of my friends went to far today with banter over messages, she was annoyed at one of our ex friends and wanted me and a few of my other friends to forgive her so our ex friend will leave her and my other friends from a different group along but over messages she told me to ‘end it! twice (if you get what i mean, i’m not sure how much i can say without it getting flashed) and pretty much told me I was fat.
This friend doesn’t talk to me as often as we use to due to me also hanging out with other people, this being said they still would have known that i’m insecure about my weight and that comment shouldn’t have said even if she didn’t know, we are teenage girls and most if not all worry about their appearance to some extent.
I was already struggling and just managed to get myself to eat another small snack after my friends encouraged me to try, when that message was sent. My thoughts and insecurities had just dimmed slightly but because of those messages they have came back and i’m honestly struggling, her words keep going through my head and even when i try to reason with myself, distract myself or forget them i can’t help but think there try.
i just feel crap and now i have to pretend i’m ok and that i wasn’t hurt by her comments tomorrow as it’s just her humor and logic she didn’t mean anything by it but still it hurt and it’s make everything so much worse.
@willingSugar9815
sounds rough but why is being fat bad ima little chybby but thatts it if your personality shines through it nothing else matters.
@willingSugar9815
I hate to hear that your friend hurt you because you weren't doing what she told you to do. You have the right to have the friends you wish to have and the feelings that you have are valid. Feeling hurt is a normal feeling when you are told a hurtful statement.
I would agree with @Bazzust0, that weight doesn't define us, and body make up doesn't define us. It's who we are as people that define us. It's your heart, your kindness, your personality and the person who you are that makes you who you are and the reason that people want to spend time around you.
I hear you when you are saying that now it's difficult to eat after her comment, but please remember that you are worth the nutrition you are putting into your body. Her statement to you was hurtful and was not said with the kindness of a friend who was thinking of her friend (you), but rather, herself. Please try to take care of you in spite of her unkindness that you didn't deserve.
Keep posting.
