Welp

@brenbird

Hey there. I understand the need to lose weight but please do not make yourself hurt in the process of doing so. I have gone through anorexia myself (mine was for other reasons) and its not something you want to live through. Its not an easy situation to get out of. 

Your feelings are valid and I understand why you might need to lose weight but there are healthy ways to do so arent there? 

I dont think that your goal in in the process of losing weight to lose control of your appetite and go in deep to another issue.

You matter, you are strong and you are great as you are.

Sending hugs and courage your way

Hi, your struggles are definitely heard. I have gone through a situation almost identical to this and had the same thoughts. For a while, I thought that my weight loss was going well, until it wasn't. Losing weight can be a very, very deep rabbit hole to go down, and it can feel scary and also feel like it's the only option. 
Why did you first start to try and lose weight? Was it an internal (like diabetes) or an external (like body dysmorphia) factor? Have you tried other methods instead of restricting? I do exercise myself because restricting started impacting my daily life.
You are perfect, and no matter what, people will be here to support you, even when it feels like you're alone. I am always here to talk.
Sending love 🫶