Eating Disorder Community - How do you actually feel today?

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Scared. I want to starve myself till I'm so skinny there's nothing but bones but I'm terrified because of the long term effects of this. I'm so scared.

I'm feeling very triggered... I've been dealing with bulimia and anorexic tendencies and I just want to starve myself and throw up until I'm as skinny as I should be.

Today I'm feeling like I may no longer be in control. My friend almost cried yesterday when he saw the bones sticking out of my back. He was begging me to eat, and I was pinching my stomach telling him: "See? There's still more to lose."He told me that Ican't see what I'm doing to myself...

I've been looking myself up and down in the mirror for hours. I can see my ribs and my spine protruding. I can seethat my thighs no longer touch. Yet somehow I still feel like I need to lose a bit more weight...

At the same time, I feel like I can't control my eating habits as well as I used to. I'm eating more than I should to lose the last few pounds. I don't even weigh myself regularly. I can just feel it...

I feel like I am inching towards relapse. I am so jealous of this super skinny girl at work that it hurts. I am constantly thinking about food. I get nervous in grocery stores. I hate my body, but I can't stop looking at it.

I am really nervous to post here. I don't want to be anyones downfall. I just want to not feel alone in this :) I am on the road to recovery from bulimia...at least I hoped I was. Good luck everyone!

I wanted to eat sweets remained from the holidays, instead I ate an orange, deciding, peeling and cutting all by myself! I'll definitely eat a small treat later in the day, but for now I'm high on fruit sugar, full in the stomach, full of energy and full of proudness :)

Hi. I'm new so I thoughtI'd post just to say hello. I'm currently in therapy working to bein recovery. Therapy is nice and it ishelping, but sometimes I need to talk to someone more than once a week, especially when I'm in the throws of it all.

I just want to be perfect. I need to be tall, skinny, smart, and perfect. My eating disorder is controlling my life.....

I feel fat and lazy and disgusting and ugly and boring and weird. I'll never be good enough. My friends leave me when they get a "better offer."