Eating Disorder Community - How do you actually feel today?
I'm feeling OK today. My stomach is in knots I haven't purged in two days which was really hard. It helped that my dad has been going to bed late so that prevents me from doing anything. Neither of my parents know yet... and I've been getting in control of my eating, but my parents are about to leave for a few so I'm hoping that I can stand strong until they come home.
@decembernight0608 - first of all, I am incredibly proud of you for not purging for a couple days! That is incredibly hard, and both your courage to try to break the cycle and your strength in holding off is huge. Those two days are an enormous victory, and one I hope you are really proud of.
You mentioned that it helped that your dad has been going to bed late, preventing you from purging - it can definitely be helpful to have other people around, so if your parents won't be there, do you think it might help to have someone else over to help distract you? You should also always feel free to reach out to a listener on this site when you need some extra support or just someone to talk to while you try to hold off a little longer.
Good luck, stay strong, and awesome job so far! I'll end with sharing something that helped me a lot as I recovered:
?Today I will do my best. If I have a good day, I will be proud of myself. If I have a bad day, I will not dwell on it, I will forgive myself, I will put it behind me and I will continue to move forward in my recovery?
Thank you so much I am really proud! I'm definitely going to reach out and find the courage to tell my parents or someone close to me so they can help me through this distraction is what I need because it's a difficult struggle to overcome
I'm stuggling with anorexia it's hard to eat I can't becausethen I'll loose weight
@sparklzlover2001 - I'm sorry to hear you are struggling so much right now. I know for a lot of people (myself included), it can really help to talk through some of these things. If you're up for it, I know we have some pretty fabulous teen listeners who would be happy to talk and support you.
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I feel awful, I've been in recovery since over a year but now after a small relapse my body wants to make up for the restriction and I get extreme hunger/reactive eating and my anxiety is overwhelming. I feel like I've gained tons this week (not weighing myself since a year) and I'm scared which weight I'll end up bc I know my body decides who much it wants to weigh (set point n stuff you know?). I'm so afraid how gaining weight will affect my life in a negative way, such as being bullied. I just want to be a normal happy and healthy young woman and I'm so done with this shit. But the ED thoughts are so strong today and I'm planning to restrict the next days (even tho I know I'm not gonna do this bc it'll get me nowhere
It sounds like you're feeling pretty overwhelmed right now, which is completely understandable - recovery can absolutely be overwhelming! It's great that you recognize that restricting won't really get you anywhere and that your body has a set point it wants to be at, but I understand the fear of not knowing what's going on. It might help to reach out to a listener on this site to talk through some of what you're feeling. Good luck!
I'm having a rough day. I start ED out patient care on June 5th, my third attempt at rehab, and I'm scared
Starting something like that can definitely be scary! Is there something that makes this time scarier than the others, or is it more the usual anticipation and unknown? It might help to reach out to a listener to talk through your fears and help you feel ready for the 5th. Take care
I feel groggy and tired I can go about two and a half days before I purge and I hate it because I think I'm doing so well then I fall off of the bandwagon. I'm trying to find ways to keep my mind busy, I really want to last more than 2 1/2 days. I'm going to keep trying.
2 1/2 days is an amazing start! That's really hard to do when you're starting recovery, so give yourself credit for that. It helped me to make goals that were achievable but made me reach, so maybe next time shooting for 3 days, then 3 1/2 and so on will help. Stay strong, love!
I feel pretty good today, to be honest.I had chest pain and was feeling dizzy yesterday, but I am fine now.
Glad to hear you're feeling better today than yesterday!
I feel lonely today. I feel like trying to fill my lonely heart with food. I need friends.
I'm sorry you're feeling so lonely and isolated. Do you think talking to a listener on this site might help? Or are there other places you feel you can connect with people? Take care.
Today, I'm feelingsad, overwhelmed and lonely.
I'm sorry you're having such a rough time. If you need someone to talk to about how you're feeling, there are loads of great listeners on here who would be happy to help. Take care
I'm feeling ok, I've gone 1 day without purging so I'm trying to keep the cycle going. I really want to tell my friend about this but talking to him now is like I'm a stranger to him and it hurts and I think that's a bit of a trigger for me so I'm just trying to keep pushing on and hopes he'll talk to me more. I'm a bit hungry, but I also feel like I'm already full. Today is just a day or positive thinking.
I felt quite bad all day. I used laxatives yesterday so my belly hurt so bad, my stomach was in pain all day I'm afraid of my health because I have bulimia for more than a year and I didn't binge and purge for like only 20days thru this year..I always feel like 'okay today I'll change myself for real..' but I never did it..My mum doesn't know - tomorrow my sister is going to psychologist for the first time and I don't want to stress her(mum) even more..it's sad i want to tell her and i know she would help me but i just don't want to dissapoint her in me more than she already is..need someone in recovery to talk with..is there anybody?
@lostineatingdisorder - I'm sorry to hear you're in so much pain. Starting recovery is a really hard process, especially when you're doing it without the support of your family. I understand not wanting to stress your mom out more, but I wonder if your sister going to a psychologist for the first time might be a good opportunity for you to express interest in something similar, whether you're ready to tell your mom why or not. Either way, it sounds like you need someone to talk to, and there are lots of listeners on here (myself included) who have experience with eating disorders and would be happy to talk through it with you. If you want to talk to me, feel free to send me a message and we can set up a time we're both free. If you need someone more immediately, you can browse through listeners who are currently online for one who specifically specializes in eating disorders. Good luck!
Thank yoou I'm chatting with others almost all day..wish everyone in this world was so kind like people here..1st day and i love it..helping others and feeling better about myself too..i bought a diary so ill try to recover alone with help here and if i wont get better ill tell it to my mum. thanks a lot!
@lostineatingdisorder - I'm so glad to hear that this community has been helpful to you so far. Welcome, and please let us know any way we can help support you.
I'm glad to hear that you are working towards recovery right now, and that you are planning to reach out to your mom if you aren't able to do it alone. Do you think it might help to set a specific date or eating disorder landmark at which you will reach out to her for help if you still need it? I know from experience that the deeper you go, the harder it can be to reach out, so it might help to have accountability to something you set now (e.g., if I'm still needing help on X day, I will tell my mom or if I get to X weight or am eating less than X amount or purging more than X frequency, I will tell her).
Either way, glad you're here and that it's helping so far!
I've been where you are and I'm so sorry to hear that you're going through this. I know it sucks. It does truly get better just hang in there sweetheart. If you ever need someone I'm here along with so many others
