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Eating Disorder Community - How do you actually feel today?

User Profile: Laura
Laura December 2nd, 2014

Let us know in 1-3 sentences. Post as often as you like!

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User Profile: DoveLove
DoveLove August 24th, 2015

i feel depressed because I have gained weight and i don't know how to handle it. I tried to enjoy the day, today is the first day after summerholidays, but i had a panic attack in school... but i ate as healthy and good as possible, although it wasn't easy


(I hope you can understand everything 🙈)

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User Profile: Anomalia
Anomalia August 25th, 2015

@DoveLove - I'm really proud of you for pushing through and eating healthy even when it was really hard for you. You are so strong and you can get through this and come out the other side healthy, happy, and loving of yourself. Take care and stay strong!

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User Profile: daintydaisyyy
daintydaisyyy August 24th, 2015

My body image is so bad today i just want to restrict

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User Profile: BrightSummer889
BrightSummer889 August 25th, 2015

I feel you Girl!

User Profile: Anomalia
Anomalia August 25th, 2015

@daintydaisyy - It's so hard when you're feeling so low about your body to convince yourself that it's still important to nourish it, but it really is. Fighting bad body image is incredibly tough, and honestly, the best thing that helped me was really the 'fake it 'til you make it' idea. Every morning, force yourself to say something nice to yourself. When you feel yourself being cruel, remind yourself that you should treat you the way you would treat a dear friend. It doesn't change overnight, but with time, being kind to yourself will start to change how you feel about yourself, too. Take care, sweetie

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User Profile: BrightSummer889
BrightSummer889 August 24th, 2015

I have gained weight today and feel incredible 'Disgust' in myself and feel that to 'punish' myself I should do lots of sit-ups tonight

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User Profile: Anomalia
Anomalia August 25th, 2015

@BrightSummer889 - I can relate to how hard it is to see that number change, but I hope you can try to let go of it, rather than punishing yourself. You deserve better than cruelty and punishment from anyone, most especially from yourself. What would you tell a friend who told you she had to punish herself for this? Can you tell yourself the same thing?

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User Profile: th3commonc0ld
th3commonc0ld August 25th, 2015

I've had a bad day and I worry that I might relapse tomorrow.

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User Profile: Anomalia
Anomalia August 25th, 2015

@th3commonc0ld - How are you doing today? I hope you've been able to stay away from the relapse and to instead reach out for the support you need when things are this tough. Never hesitate to reach out here if you need some extra encouragement, love, or anything else. And if you have relapsed, try to forgive yourself and move forward, back into recovery. You are strong and you can do this.

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User Profile: selfconfidentPeach2806
selfconfidentPeach2806 August 25th, 2015

Do you ever tell yourself "tomorrow will be different, I will not continue with this pattern. I will not binge, I will not purge." Then tomorrow arrives, and you repeat the same sentence in your head and hope tomorrow will someday truly come? I always hope tomorrow will actually be different.

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User Profile: Anomalia
Anomalia August 25th, 2015

@selfconfidantpeach2806 - I can relate so much to what you're saying. All I can offer is that what helped me most with this is to stop making each day an all or nothing game and break it down further. I focus on making the best decision I can in this meal, this hour, this minute, whatever I need to do. When it's hardest, I try to get from one minute to the next without giving in. When I'm feeling stronger, I can take on a whole day or weekend at once. But set small manageable goals and work towards them. You can do this. You really can.

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User Profile: whisperingwillow2
whisperingwillow2 August 25th, 2015

i feel gross and sad

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User Profile: Anomalia
Anomalia August 25th, 2015

@whisperingwillow2 - I'm sorry you're feeling that way. I wish I could offer something to change it, but since I can't, instead I will offer you a huge *hug* through the internet. Take care

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August 25th, 2015

Really bad. I try not to think about my problems.

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User Profile: Anomalia
Anomalia August 25th, 2015

@alexlove - I'm sorry to hear today is such a tough day for you. It seems like even though you're trying not to think about your problems, it might help to talk about them a bit. Have you thought about logging in as a member/guest and grabbing a listener here to talk for a while? Take care

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August 26th, 2015

Thank you for support, I'm constantly on my member account smiley

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August 26th, 2015

It's been a tough couple of days. School hasn't been an easy transition for me. I'm trying to take it in stride. On the plus side though, I was very proud of myself for actually pulling out and using my sketchbook (I use drawing as one of my healthy coping mechanisms) when I was feeling overwhelmed instead of choosing other less healthy behaviors. I'm really hoping this week gets better.

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User Profile: Anomalia
Anomalia August 26th, 2015

@BraveMelon7408 - Really really proud of you for turning to drawing when you're feeling stressed or overwhelmed - that's a fantastic alternative, and with some new art to show at the end! Hopefully the transition back to school with get a little easier in the next week or so as it becomes a bit more normal again. Take care, and stay strong!

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User Profile: convivialFriend25
convivialFriend25 August 26th, 2015

im so hungry i just want to eat...but my fucked up mind won't let me

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User Profile: Anomalia
Anomalia August 26th, 2015

@convivialfriend25 - Sometimes it helped me to find foods that my mind was more willing to let me eat for those really tough times. Or to find a distraction for my mind while my body was able to eat - a conversation, a tv show, some music, whatever works. If it helps, you could even grab a listener here and talk to them while you eat so that you have the extra encouragement you need while you eat. Take care, you can do this!

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User Profile: AnAbundanceOfMe
AnAbundanceOfMe August 26th, 2015

School is starting soon and I'm not thin enough to go back yet I don't think I can eat until school begins

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User Profile: Anomalia
Anomalia August 26th, 2015

@AnAbundanceOfMe - When you are back at school and you first see your friends again, what do you think as you see them? Are you immediately concerned about whether they are skinny enough to be there? Or are you just excited to see people you love? What purpose does being skinny serve that is needed before you get back to school?

I believe in you, and I know that you can go back to school strong and healthy instead of starving. You can do this.

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