Eating Disorder Community - How do you actually feel today?
i feel so fat b\c my metabolism makes it 2 were i cant stop eating.
i HATE being a teen!!!!!!!!!
@alexaners7734 - What about being a teen do you hate? How is it impacting the eating issues, too?
*hugs*
@Anomalia the fact that we never get full and have 2 stay constantly eating! :'(
@Anomalia its making me feel so fat!
I feel completely terrible. I don't remember ever hating myself as much as I do right now. I feel huge and I can't stop comparing myself to other people and looking into reflective surfaces at my body. I hate it. I feel so ugly and unattractive. I feel like I've gained so much weight. I can't stop being on this continuous cycle of relapse and recovery. No matter how hard I try. I'm injuring myself and taking my measurement almost every day. I don't know how to feel good anymore. I really don't think I can keep doing this, i hate my school and I have no one to talk to. I don't love anything. I feel like I want to feel better, but at the same time I don't think I deserve it. I feel selfish for complaining and hating myself so much, when others aren't as fortunate as I am. But I just feel so terrible and I don't know how to stop. I cry myself to sleep most nights but I can't seem to talk to someone and ask for help. What if things never get better?
@greenPlum164 - I think as long as nothing changes, nothing will get better, but things can change and things can get better and I believe in your ability to get them there. The first step is reaching out for help - here is a good start, and with time, in your offline life, as well. If you need to talk to someone who's been there and understands, you are always welcome to message me. Take care - I know you are stronger than you believe and you can get through this!
I just thought I would post here. Not really adressed to anyone, but just a message about my own personal struggle with an eating disorder. I began binging and purging at the age of 16 and was able to stop just a bit over a year later. So obviously my time as a belimic was short, but the issues that led to that behavior still sits with me ten years later. I am here to deal with those problems and emotional pain that led me to hate myself so more. I do feel hopeful about this and would love to meet other like minded indivduals along the way.
@Aengland - Welcome! It sounds like you're on a great path of healing and taking the right steps. If you ever need someone to talk to along the way, don't hesitate to reach out! :)
i feel sad,i gain some weigh
this morning i wanted 2 cut and purge from eating 2 breakfasts.
then mom tricked me n2 eating a family sized salad, pasta and a breadstick....i attempted 2 purge and felt so pathetic wen it compleately failed. and since then, i have been banging my fists n2 my head.
I feel horrible. I ate too much and I'm terrified.
We don't have a scale in my house so I can't weight myself. I had two toaster strudels and a bit of green bean casoral. I feel so nauseous and I just want to puke
@plumBlueberry7467 - It can definitely be scary when you face a fear food and don't know what it might do. Sometimes I think it can help to talk through those feelings with someone who has been there - if you ever want to talk, don't hesitate to reach out. Take care
i ate an apple and j start crying
why am i so fat?
ed is being a smart alec and really getting on my nerves 2day.
i ask him why he treats me like this and it says "im asking you the same thing!"
i ask him to leave me alone and let me do wat i need 2 do to survive and it says "i could ask you the same thing!"
then i tell it im doing this for us and it says "im saying the same thing!"
..y is this happening 2 me!!!!!! :"(
I feel like I'm the ugliest girl in the world. This is the heaviest and most unhealthy I've ever been. I just want to be happy with who I am, but I feel like I can't escape from myself.
@dapperBeing6174 - It's definitely a scary place to be in, when you feel trapped in yourself. And I can relate to those feelings coming up when you're at a higher weight than you've been before or that you're comfortable with. But in my experience, it's often less about losing weight to be able to love yourself and more about finding a way to love yourself in order to take the power away from the weight.
What are some things you do love about yourself?
Feel free to message me anytime if you could use some extra support. Be well.
suprisingly ok......even tho i at a whole entire lb. of angel hair and 2 pieces of cake. :0
@alexaners7734
Hi Alexander, hope you are doing well today.:)
@lovingLynx89 for the past 3 days, i hav not been eating enuff or getting enuff calories.
@alexaners7734
Alexander, thank you for sharing.. I know you can do this! be well, your body deserves to feel awesome! You can do this!:) take care.
