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Eating Disorder Community - How do you actually feel today?

User Profile: Laura
Laura December 2nd, 2014

Let us know in 1-3 sentences. Post as often as you like!

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User Profile: DyemeHappy
DyemeHappy December 4th, 2014

I feel veryanxiousabout the lack of food in thefridge and our lowincome this month. I am fighting the urge to restrict and feel worthless about how muchmoney i make for the house.

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User Profile: chioo
chioo December 5th, 2014

Aww sweetie, you're trying. That's all it matters. You're strong :) *hugs* please feel free to message anyone if you need a lil extra support. Loads of love and support ❤

User Profile: bikecomicsand42
bikecomicsand42 December 10th, 2014

A friend of mine is going everyday to the local open air market during closing time, to ask for unsold veggies they are throwing away. She started bringing back a couple of crates at the beginning, cleaning the rotten parts and cooking what's good. After they started to get used to her, she started to bring so much food, she has to can to preserve what she saves. It might seem hard on your pride at the beginning but she eats fresh veggies and fruit for free, and that's what matters.

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User Profile: Arielsblondesister
Arielsblondesister December 5th, 2014

Im having a binge week... I just keep eating and I cant stop. I hate myself

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User Profile: chioo
chioo December 5th, 2014

Have you tried the alternatives sweetie? :) if not, please do. They help. Also colours like purple,grey,black,brown helps to curb down the urge. Maybe stare at them when you feel like eating? I hope it helps :) for further assistance please feel free to message anyone of the listeners. We are here for you all! *hugs*

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User Profile: Arielsblondesister
Arielsblondesister February 25th, 2015

Its either eat nothing or eat everything im stuck in a horrible cycle

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User Profile: Kittrick
Kittrick December 5th, 2014

@Arielsblondesister, I know how it feels and especially the feeling of hating yourself. I am having my first week of not eating any of my binge trigger foods for the first time in... years, and had a couple major binge slips a couple weeks back. For me, the constant fight not to give in is a tiring one but one I hope is worthwhile.

User Profile: DyemeHappy
DyemeHappy December 5th, 2014

@ariel & kittrickI deff know how you feel :[[ I spent2 years off and on activly trying to control my urges.I've been keeping a journel with myacomplishments. Even if it was something little like "didnt take second serving because i was full" or "didnt buy my trigger/binge foods". and even if it was directly related like " I got up this morning and wore my new jeans all day" ( i avoid wearing new clothes for long peroids of time because i start to feel really insecure even if i liked the when i first got dresses)I could go back and read them when i was feeling those urges and see the progress i have made & try to think positive about myself instead of the negative that i found got be to my ED in the first place

User Profile: daisyxo2
daisyxo2 December 7th, 2014

Hey friends! Feeling pretty good. A bit concerned...with the Victorias Secret fashion show, it's inspired me to make some body image changes. But the lines are a bit blurred between motivation and triggering.

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User Profile: DyemeHappy
DyemeHappy December 7th, 2014

My advice for you is to remeber who *you* are. Those models are only partialy real (as in what you see of them on t.v.) with the invention of photo shop and the clothes/ lack of clothes are postioned to make them look there best. Insperation is good. Just remind your self looking good is a great feeling but being healthy is the ultimate goal. If you are unhealthy (overweight or out of shape) then make **small** changes drink more water got on walks and eat meals filled with vitamins and nutrian that your body NEEDS to function. If you have supportive family/friends or even a therapist let them know what you are doing so they can be aware and let you know if you are going to far. Best of luck <3

User Profile: Miracle
Miracle December 7th, 2014

Just thought that if you haven't seen this the link is really nicehttps://m.youtube.com/watch?v=iYhCn0jf46U

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User Profile: DyemeHappy
DyemeHappy December 9th, 2014

I just want a day where no one expects anything from me soo i can just do what i want to get done not what everyone assumes i should do...

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User Profile: chioo
chioo December 10th, 2014

Ignore :) just be "you". We love you the way you are honey. Sometimes expectations weigh us down. Don't let them! Just be you :)

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User Profile: chioo
chioo December 10th, 2014

Guys! You are very strong :) I'm so very proud of you *cries happy tears* you're brave enough to accept and try to change yourself for good! Now that's AMAZING! You're loved. All of you and you have our support :) always. Recovery is always possible and always with you guys. 💜 lots if love and support.

User Profile: politeCup86
politeCup86 December 10th, 2014

Well eating disorder community is very large but I can only see few reply, I appreciate a lot of the help I received here from so many listeners. But I think if I can't help myself no one will be able too, food is very sensitive bcuz it's everywhere and on every event, it's like giving a suicidal person a gun in his hand and ask him to keep holding it without doing it, it's an ongoing suffer, and well ppl who is suffering from this disorder like me is only lacking love , acceptance, safety & control, it's very simple things but unfortunately not available always, that's why for me I binge eat till my heart beats reach the maximum and my breath is raising so high and I can feel rush of blood going to my head, I have always been obese, my entire life: as a kid, a teenager and now as an adult, I have never have the taste of being normal, no one ever see me in normal body, I feel like I was born with disability which is being obese, ppl ask me why you can?t just eat healthy and lose weight, well if I ever knew the answer would you think I would be obese?

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User Profile: bikecomicsand42
bikecomicsand42 December 10th, 2014

Do you read https://www.themilitantbaker.com ? She says to love yourself and try to be the best of who you are. It's hard to change life long habits, but you can add one: you can try to drink a glass of water everytime you eat, water will occupy space and makes your stomach feel full and you will arrive to that feeling of rush sooner. No other drink can substitute.

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User Profile: chioo
chioo December 10th, 2014

Yes and colour therapy also helps :)

User Profile: politeCup86
politeCup86 December 10th, 2014

Thanks sand. I will read that. I always end up eating by water to feel the rush :) it's just I guess I'm being too sad now and I lack motivation in a severe way. I'm extremely depressed and very tired. I have heaviness in my heart. The only hope I have in life is the listeners here. And I'm thankful because they are not leaving me alone in this abusive world. They make me feel like I'm worthy. And like I matter.

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User Profile: bikecomicsand42
bikecomicsand42 December 10th, 2014

You do matter. Believe in yourself.

I remain on my couch often, when I don't want to see people and socialize. Then I feel depressed and I remain more. It becomes a vicious cycle.

Sugar and processed food & drinks make you feel tired even if you didn't do any movement. If you're dieting and burning fat, you release toxins trapped in fat previously. Water clears toxins that makes you tired, walking outside in the nature make you feel less depressed. Probably you know all that, I know all that and I find it hard to go out and have a walk. Just try and do it to feel better, not to try to fit into the one size body that our society obliges us to become.

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User Profile: politeCup86
politeCup86 December 10th, 2014

Thanks sand. I will read that. I always end up eating by water to feel the rush :) it's just I guess I'm being too sad now and I lack motivation in a severe way. I'm extremely depressed and very tired. I have heaviness in my heart. The only hope I have in life is the listeners here. And I'm thankful because they are not leaving me alone in this abusive world. They make me feel like I'm worthy. And like I matter.

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User Profile: chioo
chioo December 10th, 2014

I'm so sorry that many don't come here. But I promise you that all the listeners are here to help you out :) I'll try my best to answer you support you and guide you as much as I can :) yes,food triggers are everywhere. But you've got so far,you've realised. That's a very good start I'd say. Lots of love and support 💜

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User Profile: politeCup86
politeCup86 December 10th, 2014

Chioo thanks a lot for your sweet words. I'm too scared bcuz I gave up on my self. I feel like I put my self in a bought and just going deeper and deeper in the sea not knowing when I will sink. My eyes are blind for loving myself right now I know. But I donnow how will I love my self and stop listening to others and how they are judging me. I'm grateful from my heart for all the listeners. Luv u all

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User Profile: chioo
chioo December 10th, 2014

Its never too late to start something good :) let's take baby steps. We will not sink,we will swim to the other shore :) that is our goal :D That reminds me of something "haters gonna hate,potatoes gonna pirate" it seems silly but do you know what it means? It means that we can change how people think about us :) so why bother honey? :) live for yourself! Don't push yourself. Let's take baby steps 😊

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User Profile: politeCup86
politeCup86 December 15th, 2014

Chicooit's very hard not to bother about what others think of u :( my mother keep calling me very bad names like 24/07 since i was a kid which is affected my image inside me for good , i can't change it really :(

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User Profile: chioo
chioo December 10th, 2014

Let's plan a group activity :) start with accepting your weight. I won't lie,I had weight issues too but with a lil effort and lots of love and support we can overcome hardest of hurdles :) let's support each other. So today start accepting who you are. You maybe over wieight or under! But say it out loud. State 5 good and positive things about yourself :) *look in to the mirror and say it out loud* Be proud of yourselves. You're making a start! That's amazing and you all deserve a pat on the back for it 💖