Getting annoyed by my Mom.

She hates me. She always has ever since I was born. She's really nice to my face and mean to me behind my back. Everything that I tell her is spread and made fun of by the other family members. Especially my dad. I'm pretty sure my mlm made him hate me. They all send me funny videos and so I send some back, but my mom doesn't think anything I send her or say is funny in any way at all! Nothing I say impresses her or makes her proud. 

I get so anxious tocome around because my mom laughs at me in my face and lets my sisters say awful things about me, but that's when I leave. She doesn't stopthem at all. In fact, she joins in and last time said she hated me and couldn't stand me, which I can tell. She wears her annoyance on her face. It just makes me so mad that I continue to talk to her and she runs and tells the whole family, especially if it's something embarassing. Secrets get told and I get made fun of. 

The last couple of times I felt suicidal. I poured my heart out to her and every time she comes home and tells the rest of the family that I'm a loser. I literally do this every car ride. I pour out my feelings and to the wrong person. I'm not suicidal, I just vent. My mom is using ALL of it to backstab me!

My sisters have always hated me and said negative things about me, but now that my mom's joined in, I feel incredibly anxious. I NEED to stop saying things to her. Btw, I'm disabled and can't move. The hood thing is that I have my own cabin.

I get so happy because I get manic and tell her everything and it all just gets made fun of. "SHE wants to plant a GARDEN!" 🤣🤣🤣🤣

The past few times I went in the kitchen, she kept looking over at me then my dad and saying EW!!! I'm now 26. The good thing is that I have my own house, but it's not mine.