i’m only 20
i’m so tired with everything honestly. i have to be a third parent for my now adult brother (18) bc he’s refusing to talk to my parents. on top of this im taking 21 college credits, majoring in 2 fields, minoring in another, running 4 clubs, working 3 jobs, and have to do well in all of it. i can’t just use the mindset of “C’s get degrees” bc i want to go to dental school and apply this year. im just so exhausted. my brother attempted to take his life in front of my very eyes, 4 days before his 18th birthday, and im the only one he talks to anymore. he doesn’t talk to my parents and is being very stubborn. i have to be another parent and im just so exhausted. im lucky if i have time to eat even 1 meal a day bc of how much im doing. idk why God is putting me through this anymore. i haven’t had a summer break in 3 years since starting college bc of summer classes. i’m just so tired to the point of having physical difficulty walking upstairs. i’m only 20. i don’t understand what im doing anymore.
@rationalPond9522
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That is alot in your shoulders and to be honest, I don't know how you are managing at all. I'm so happy that your brother has you, I can see it's difficult but I can hear in your words how much he means to you. I'm so sorry he tried to take his own life, the trauma for you both, thank God he didn't succeed. Its clear you need college to further your dreams, you might need to take a step back from the four clubs you mentioned because you cannot sustain the pressure and you will run into bad health. I just want you to know, you are one of the kindest people I have ever come across, with a big and loyal heart, and wishing you genuinely all the best 💜💕
I am truely sorry, that you are going through this at such a young age.
Really sorry. I sincerely hope things get better for you soon.
I know things are difficult, you are doing too many things at one moment, just relax a little, take time for yourself.
Do connect with me if you wish to talk about it. Really happy to help.
I hope you have a good day ahead ✨️
You're pushing yourself now so you won't have to later. It's admirable. I wish I'd done better about it.
But don't destroy yourself or let those you love be forgotten for a future that isn't guaranteed