Crippled Support Network..

So during the aftermath of a recent crisis, where I had no choice but to ghost people... I tried reconnecting with some close friends.
Only for me to discover that both of them had moved on and given the circumstances of my "hiatus", they decide it would be better to move on than to continue our friendship...

I expected an outcome like this, but literally overnight a huge part of my support network is ripped away from me and there's nothing I can do about.
I can't change what happened and I feel horrible putting my friends in a situation that caused them to worry and stress over if I was okay or not.

Part of me considered not reaching back out to them, but the way I vanished bothered me and I wanted to let them know I was okay.
I have to accept the fact that I might have to let go of these people... And I cant force them into a new friendship.

Now I'm trying to figure out what to do now, and who can take their place because I struggle with making friends.. and I'm scared to open up to anyone because people might not understand my struggles.

While I've found supportive people here on cups, trying to find more offline support feels impossible.