I hope things are able to get better.

It’s a silly reason to be upset but I need to get it off my mind somewhere before I fall asleep or o fear it will keep me up. 

Lately, I’ve been offering to stream games to friends but I noticed that whenever I make the offer, no one responds! At first I thought, ‘Are they ignoring me?’ But weirdly enough, they respond to other comments and questions I make not relating to that stream. 

At first I tried to let it go but tonight hurt me specifically. I made the offer to stream and no one responded. I was a little upset but thought ‘oh! maybe they’re busy?’ but then I noticed that when someone else said they’re were going to join VC and just chill, two of our friends instantly join the call. 

To start off, it doesn’t help that I’m on bad terms with this person (you may know who from my previous posts here) so their actions overall annoy me but it makes me more upset/ignored that no one responded to my streaming request but turned around and joined a call on impulse. 

To clarify, I’m not mad at them for joining the call, I’m mad they never responded to my stream asks. All I want is a simple yes or no from them! Is that so hard to ask for? I even tried streaming in the other channel anyways and no one joined mine but someone who left the first one joined back the first one. I didn’t even get comments in the ‘no mic’ channels we have. Nothing.

I ended up leaving the server for the night out of frustration. Maybe I’ll be back tomorrow or the day after that. Maybe it was a childish thing I did on impulse but it just upset me greatly.