Fear of losing my friends because of me

I’m in a situation where for my whole life I mask my emotions and my personality with it, I have recently came to realise how fake I am to everyone I know and I do this to make more friends and become more relatable however all I seem to get are fake friends who really just hate me and have no respect for me and just stop being with me. I have made a small group of friends where we are all similar and are LGBT. I have really felt myself with them however I still end up having to keep a fake personality, although I’m not as fake I still lie about myself and I fear if they find out I’ve lied to them for so long I might loose them. honestly I don’t know what to do. And I don’t know how to get around this…