I can't trust anyone
I am new here and I know that the title is kind of misleading since I am online posting my thoughts for other people to see but at this point I will try to use anything in my power to understand what I am feeling, even if it means going around expressing my emotions.
With each day I become more and more annoyed and everyday I fight more and more the urge to burn bridges left and right. I have been described as a popular guy and never had a problem with my social life as I always got along with pretty much everyone, even to a point where some people got to think of me as a very dear friend. With all that being said, my life feels like *** and I feel like I need to just terminate everyone around me for no particular reason. I am starting to hate people around me, hate their presence and even the support that they offer me. Every single interaction feels forced, peope talk to me, say nice things and whatever but they feel like nothing at all to me. I feel like I can't trust anyone and that I may be unworthy of everything.
@WhoThamI
Hello. I've got an impression that you might feel really confused. So, would you mind if I asked you to specify what kind of problem it might be?
Are you just tired by constant interaction with people, needing some quiet time alone?
Or are you concerned about the quality of the relationships: do you think they are superficial, or do you think you are a good friend while no one really cares about you, and no one is a really good friend to you?
Have you ever had any anxiety about being emotionally close with other people? Feeling it as unsafe rather than nurturing? Or any negative experience with someone using the closeness and your vulnerability to hurt or exploit you?
Or do you have any feeling inside telling you that you are not worth it, or you do not feel like the right person, despite universal acclaim?