I want to know what exactly happened btw us

AT 15, I JOINED A NEW SCHOOL IN GRADE 11, WHICH WAS 30 KM FROM MY CITY. I TRAVELED TO SCHOOL EVERY DAY AND RETURNED HOME BY SCHOOL BUS. AFTER A MONTH, I MADE NEW FRIENDS AND LEARNED THAT ONE OF MY FRIENDS HAD A GIRLFRIEND. I HAD NEVER BEEN IN A RELATIONSHIP BEFORE—ONLY HAD CRUSHES, BUT THEY REJECTED ME, WANTING TO BE FRIENDS INSTEAD. I WAS EXCITED TO KNOW HE HAD A GIRLFRIEND; SHE WAS IN GRADE 9, AND SHE WOULD HELP HIM WITH HIS HOMEWORK. THEY MET FROM FAR AWAY.

SOON, OUR FRIEND GROUP INCLUDED ME, MY FRIEND, HIS GIRLFRIEND, AND ANOTHER GIRL. WE USED TO TEASE HIM IN FRONT OF HER TO MAKE THINGS FUNNY. THEN, WE TALKED TO HER AND FLIRTED WITH HER IN FRONT OF HIM. HE WAS NOT SERIOUS ABOUT HER AND TOLD ME SO. LATER, WE DISCOVERED THAT SHE HAD SHARED PRIVATE PHOTOS WITH HIM. I WAS EXCITED AND TOLD MY FRIEND TO LEAVE HER SO I COULD TRY TO BE WITH HER. HE LEFT HER, AND I STARTED FLIRTING WITH HER FOR THREE TO FOUR DAYS, EVENTUALLY MAKING HER MY GIRLFRIEND. I ASKED HER FOR PRIVATE PHOTOS, BUT SHE REFUSED AT FIRST. HOWEVER, AFTER CONSTANT REQUESTS, SHE SENT THEM. SOON AFTER, I LEFT HER BECAUSE I FELT FRUSTRATED AND WANTED TO STUDY AND FOCUS ON MY GRADES. I THOUGHT SHE WAS A DISTRACTION.

MONTHS PASSED, AND I WAS HOSPITALIZED FOR A MONTH. IT TOOK ME ANOTHER TWO MONTHS TO RECOVER BEFORE I RETURNED TO SCHOOL. WHEN I DID, I MESSAGED HER AGAIN AND MADE HER MY GIRLFRIEND ONCE MORE. I ASKED HER FOR PRIVATE PHOTOS AND HER PASSWORD, BUT SHE DENIED MY REQUESTS. I BECAME FRUSTRATED AND ABUSED HER VERBALLY BECAUSE I WANTED TO KNOW WHO SHE TALKED TO. I BELIEVED THAT COUPLES SHOULD SHARE PASSWORDS. I COULDN'T UNDERSTAND WHY I DID THAT—I HAD NEVER DONE IT BEFORE. THEN, I TRIED TO MAKE HER UNDERSTAND HOW RISKY IT WAS TO SEND SUCH PHOTOS. I TOLD HER I WOULD SEND THEM TO OTHERS, EVEN THOUGH I FELT ABSURD SAYING IT. I DID THIS FOR THREE DAYS, AND SHE CRIED. SHE TOLD ME HER MOTHER HAD PASSED AWAY, BUT I STILL ABUSED HER. LATER, I REALIZED I HAD BECOME A MONSTER. GRADUALLY, I STARTED TO CHANGE, AND I BROKE UP WITH HER AGAIN—ASKING MY FRIEND TO TELL HER NOT TO TALK TO ME.

AT THIS POINT, I FELT LIKE THE WORST PERSON. ONE OF MY FRIENDS HAD ALSO TAKEN HER HELP IN GETTING A GIRLFRIEND, WHO WAS HER FRIEND. HE WAS IMPORTANT IN THIS STORY BECAUSE HE TALKED TO HER IN A FUNNY WAY. LATER, I ASKED TWO GIRLS TO BE MY FRIEND—ONE AGREED, AND ONE DENIED. AFTER THAT SINGLE CONVERSATION, I NEVER TALKED TO THEM AGAIN.

THEN, I STARTED TALKING TO HER AGAIN. WE ALSO KISSED ON THE CHEEK—SHE INITIATED IT FIRST. WE HUGGED AFTER THE KISS. A FEW DAYS LATER, I LEFT THE SCHOOL TO FOCUS ON MY CAREER.

AS TIME PASSED, I STARTED TO FEEL THAT SHE WAS TALKING TO ANOTHER GUY. SHE DID NOT HAVE A MOTHER, SO I WORRIED THAT OTHERS COULD TAKE ADVANTAGE OF HER. HOWEVER, I DID NOT SHARE HER PRIVATE PHOTO WITH ANYONE EXCEPT ONE FRIEND,  WITHOUT HER FACE. 

LATER, I STARTED TALKING TO HER AGAIN, ONLY TO BREAK UP AGAIN. THIS CONTINUED MULTIPLE TIMES. AT SOME POINT, SHE TOLD ME THAT A GUY WAS TEASING HER AND SENDING HER INAPPROPRIATE MESSAGES. SHE TOOK HELP FROM THE FRIEND WHO SHE HAD HELPED GET A GIRLFRIEND. EVENTUALLY, THE ISSUE WAS RESOLVED. HOWEVER, THE FRIEND SHE HAD HELPED LEFT HIS GIRLFRIEND AND STARTED PURSUING HER WITHOUT TELLING ME. ONE DAY, I LEARNED SHE HAD CONFIDED IN HIM ABOUT THE GUY WHO WAS HARASSING HER AS THEY TLAKED IN BTW BECAUSE SHE HELPED HIM MAKE GF AND SEH ALSO RESOLVE THEIR ISSUE . HE WENT TO FIGHT HIM AND REFERRED TO HER AS MY GIRLFRIEND. WHEN I DISCOVERED HIS ACTIONS, I ABUSED HER THROUGH TAUNTS.

AFTER THAT, WE STARTED TALKING AS FRIENDS AGAIN BECAUSE I KNEW HE WOULD TRY TO BE WITH HER. WE TALKED, AND SHE SENT ME SNAPS, KISSES, DANCE VIDEOS, AND SHARED EVERYTHING WITH ME. HOWEVER, SHE REFUSED TO BE IN A RELATIONSHIP AGAIN. ONE DAY, SHE ASKED ME ABOUT THE OTHER GUY PRESSURING HER TO KISS HIM THREE TIMES. SHE ASKED ME WHAT SHE SHOULD DO. I DIDN'T WANT HER TO KISS HIM, BUT I SAID TO DO WHATEVER SHE WAS COMFORTABLE WITH. SHE WENT TO HIS HOUSE, GAVE HIM CHOCOLATES, AND THEN WENT TO A TEMPLE. SHE DIDN’T TELL ME, BUT I FOUND OUT FROM THE GUY’S BROTHER. SHE WAS 14 AT THE TIME. WHEN I ASKED HER, SHE CONFIRMED IT. I ASKED HER IF SHE LOVED ME, AND SHE SAID YES, BUT STILL DENIED BEING MY GIRLFRIEND. SHE SAID FRIENDSHIP WAS BETTER, AND I ASKED IF WE COULD BE BEST FRIENDS. SHE AGREED.

I INSISTED ON A RELATIONSHIP, BUT SHE DENIED IT. I ASKED HER FOR HER PASSWORD, AND SHE REFUSED. HOWEVER, FOUR DAYS LATER, SHE GAVE IT TO ME. I LOGGED INTO HER ACCOUNT AND MESSAGED THE OTHER GUY, PRETENDING TO BE HER. I ASKED HIM IF HE LIKED HER, AND HE SAID YES. I THEN DENIED ALL MY RELATIONSHIP HISTORY WITH HERBY BEING GER DENIED OUR HUG KISS  THROUGH HER ACCOUNT BEFORE SHE TOOK HER PASSWORD BACK.

AFTER THIS INCIDENT, I REQUESTED HER NOT TO GO MEET HIM AGAIN, BUT SHE STILL WENT. I WAS IN A DIFFERENT CITY AT THE TIME. SHE HUGGED HIM FIRST, AND HE TRIED TO KISS HER, BUT SHE SLAPPED HIM AND PUSHED HIM AWAY. WHEN I LEARNED ABOUT THIS THROUGH HIS FRIENDS, THEY BLAMED HER SPREAD RUMOURS HTAT SHE LIED ON BED , CLAIMING THAT SHE HAD LIED ABOUT HER ACTIONS. BUT I KNEW SHE WAS TELLING THE TRUTH. I CONFRONTED HER, AND SHE CONFIRMED THAT SHE HAD SLAPPED AND PUSHED HIM WHEN HE TRIED TO KISS HER. ONCE I GOT CAUGHT BY MY MOTHER TLAKING TO HER AFTER THAT I TOLD EACH AND EVERY DETAIL TO MY GRANDMOTHER SISTER INTRODUCED HER TO THEM SHE EVEN TLAKED TO THEM SHE INTRODUCED HER BROTHER GRANDMOTHER TO ME . SHE EVEN SAID I LOVE U TO HIM IN TRUTH DARE GAME I KNOW IT WAS DARE . SHE ALSO TOLD HIM TO NOT TELL ANYHTING TO ME AND SHE SAID HE PROVOKED HER AGAINST ME 

NOW, SEVEN MONTHS LATER, I AM STRUGGLING WITH WHAT HAPPENED. WAS IT CHEATING, IMMATURE CONFUSION, OR SOMETHING ELSE? I KNOW SHE WAS NOT IN A RELATIONSHIP WITH ME AT THE TIME, BUT HER ACTIONS STILL HURT ME. I KNOW SHE IS A GOOD PERSON WHO JUST WANTS LOYAL FRIENDS. SHE SUPPORTS EVERYONE, BUT MANY HAVE TAKEN ADVANTAGE OF HER KINDNESS.

MY GRANDMOTHER AND SISTER SAID IT WAS NOT CHEATING—JUST IMMATURITY AND CONFUSION. CHATGPT CALLED IT EMOTIONAL BETRAYAL BUT NOT INFIDELITY. COPILOT SAID IT WAS JUST CONFUSION AND IMMATURITY. I KNOW SHE DIDN’T CHEAT, SO WHY AM I BLAMING HER? I WANT TO FIND RELIEF