Lonely

Hi I'm a 36 year old guy, happily married with 2 kids. I don't resonate with most guys though and always get along great with women. Growing up, I would always gravitate toward the girls and have good friendships. But once adolescence hit, that stopped, and i became much more alone. It's really hard for me, it feels like I'm not allowed to have friends because anytime I meet someone and we hit it off, she'll say "oh you would like my husband, you two should hang out" and I get setup on some blind date with a boring guy I have nothing in common with, when i would much rather have coffee or drinks with her. So I end up having no friends. My wife is not very good at being there for me emotionally, she just says "I'm sorry you're having a hard time" and just encourages me to find guy friends. So basically confirming that just because i have different equipment, I'm not allowed to have girl friends. Apparently platonic friendships aren't a thing. She's not opposed to it but basically acknowledges that it's not normalized. But it's been my whole life. In my 20s, girls would get upset if I tried to be their friend and didn't make a move.. so no one wants to be my friend and I'll be alone forever.