Looking to not be lonely any moore

Not sure how to explain my self here i have 1 freind left but he is deported i have another 1 but he moved across the country says he never coming back to Florida plus he has changed do to a mental illness there's a handful that I'd just lost contact with, or they moved on and found other things to do with their lives. I have been betrayed in other ways in ways by people that you wouldn't believe for reasons you wouldn't believe the betrayal is quite literally unbelievable. But it's ok atleast that's what I keep telling my self, but im no btch...but it hurts plus now im lonely. At home my family was all law abiding and good manners but would lie slander and stab you in the back and did not have loyalty to anyone even if it appeared that they did but growing up in the 90s the kids outside where the exact opposite, phk the law, straight up no lie real recognize real it is what it is will stab you in the front..sometimes even actually.thats gone there gone but I took from them strong pride in loyalty and honesty..isn't that worth something and im not an ***..I just wanna chill go to the beach play cards drink a couple cocktails crack some tell some stories talk some spit plot some innocent trouble you know like for later when we're not getting the kids all together,you know a small trusted circle where no one would fall because everyone is each others crutches, you know a small click of like 4 to 8 people that would be acquainted to other small clicks so that if someone said "poker party at yoyo's house with the pool bring the kids" and than there would be an easy turn out of like 30 adults atleast..oh the things we take for granted..and now i have just memorys and stories a backstabbing brother and mother a baby mama that wants to keep my son from me because he's so cute she just wants to have him allllll for her self I have a girlfriend that makes stories up and wants to argue over things that are completely non critical to life like cant even have a conversation of any type of substance at all evvverrr...and she would love to keep me isolated lol good luck im just stuck in the house right now I just dont have my driver's license straightened out yet, gotta pretty good truck though and I cant wait to go to the beach without her lol ....wrecked my life in almost every way possible...tbi and waiting on ssi and ssdi ...and than what...idk...I have my values and personality still.ripples believe it or not I know you cant tell by reading this but im actually a little bit of the class clown I make people laff and make great 1st impressions 4 out of 5 times...neighbors dont know each other any more and i thought I had my friends forever...and family too for that matter.i didn't realize how fake my family was until I got older and wiser.i think I kind of sensed it but didn't want to believe it and than the rude awakening was far far worse than I knew...and now im alone when im with my lady, I dont know any one if I walk outside, I have two freinds I can call but one will just tell me to toughen up and the other cant handle it. It's great when my son wants to hangout with me I love him more than anything but he's 12 (not an adult) i have the Heavenly Father to confide in but I still know im alone...it is what it is I guess.