Lost my best friend
I made my first real friend a few years back. She understood me in a way nobody had, but last year she started drifting away. I didn’t give it much thought because— college, you know? It keeps everyone busy. Plus, we live in different countries now.
Except it started feeling one sided. I always texted, I always called, I always reached out. I tried explaining my feelings, and although she understood, she did nothing about it. I felt desperate and sort of pathetic to be the only one caring for our friendship, but I also felt like I owed her that since she’d been there for me at my lowest.
But then she came back home for the holidays and made a bunch of promises to hang out… right before ghosting me. For 2 weeks. Once she decided to return my messages, she was already returning to her university. She didn’t bother to apologize, call, or even say goodbye. She just left. And that was my last straw. Clearly, we are not friends anymore and it hurts more than I’d like. I feel stupid, foolish and embarrassed to have ever cared for someone who’d ultimately abandon me so carelessly
She still loves you. She still wants to see you when she comes home for a break. College is consuming. I left for college and I had to study all the time. I had to meet and work with a ton of new people to not lose my scholarship. I was still grateful for my friends at home. I still visit my friends at home 20 years later and I’m so happy that they didn’t give up on me. It’s hard to picture that She still loves you But All of the fun that you had over, the holidays was real. And what she was really saying was her intentions, She wants to hang out a lot more, She wishes she had more hours in the day, That you still matter very much. But I’m very sorry that you Don’t have that every day closeness anymore. But please don’t cut her off because You could still be these wonderful friends together 20 years from now Even if it’s only a couple times per year.
