Numb annoyed mad and many other things

I hate this ***

The feeling I can't to anything to mend whatever it is I feel unresolved in

I feel angry at God for putting me in a place where I or nobody deserves or shouldn't be in

It's a dreadful place, something that'll put someone on edge, anxious, and if provoked or set to a flame will catch fire onto things surrounding it

I want to sink into my bed

I hate that sometimes living isn't an option

That I have to work to live

Sometimes it feels that there isn't a solution to my problems

That I'll keep facing with many and deal with

Even if it didn't start with me

I long to live but I can't and that's what makes me angry

None of what I have allows me to

A blessing or a curse is always the debate with my life and the things in it

Its a blessing but one that could take me out if another inconvenience decides to happen

There's always a way and I'll get through it like I always do

But this all sucks and is unnecessary