Sick of being alone
I’ve never had a proper friendship, not like ones you see in books, films, tv or even in real life. I watch people do things with their friends such as go out, make funny *** videos together, I get jealous over it all the time.
i made two friends online which turned out to be a big mistake. The first one tried to control me, the second lied to me about everything for 2 months and then blocked me.
i feel like there’s something wrong with me, maybe something others can see and I can’t.
I’ve tried to change myself to become a better person. Looks, weight, even some of the things I like but it never helps.
i just feel so lonely all the time. It doesn’t help that I’m also chronically ill and disabled so I don’t get out at all.
i just want some friends. I’m starting to feel like I deserve to have no one. Maybe because I done bad things when I was younger.
i don’t know. I just don’t know how much more I can take with this.
@depressedboyskelly You sound like a very kind person. If anyone deserves friends this is definitely you. A few problems could be caused because you actually tried to change yourself. The lack of self-esteem can chace people away sometimes as they're afraid of other people's pain. A friendship may occur because of random circumstances. It happens to many people to lose their friends or not have any because there weren't the right circumstances. It's something that happens to all of us. When it's the right time you will be able to form friendships. For now try to focus on your own well-being and increase your sense of self-value. When this is worked out, trust me everything else will fall into place eventually! We are all here for to talk anytime you need it!
