Social withdrawal/isolation
I guess the main issue is I’ve been feel less motivated to interact with my friends. I’m at a place where I just don’t want to be bothered but I want someone who’ll be there to talk to. At the same time I don’t really want to talk about it bc no matter how many times I’ve done that in the past it hasn’t helped….It just made it more clear that there’s nothing I can do to change the situation I’m in. No, it’s not going to get better bc it’s external stuff that is out of my control. My family life sucks and the situation we’re in is terrible. I can’t talk to my friends without being so…negative? I know I won’t lose them bc they understand what’s going on and ever since we graduated High School everyone has been busy. In a way, I’m grateful sh*t hit the fan after graduation bc I don’t think I’d be able to handle my mental breakdowns at school especially since the situation at home has escalated.
I don’t think I can open up to my friends about the…thoughts I’ve been having bc I don’t want to concern them. I just wish I could just…disappear. Or sleep for 3 years or something and not deal with anything… I miss the feeling of missing my friends.☹️
@MargoMage
It is hard to deal with things that are out of our control and feeling negative.... but isolating from issues never resolves them. perhaps you can see no solutions but in talking with others sometimes we get a small idea that makes coping or understanding easier.
I understand you... I've been going through something similar and it's really complicated.
Like, they offer to help, but then I just can't bring myself to share all this overcomplicated and out of their reach situations. Plus, the thoughts you mentioned... If it's what I think, I also understand. I feel like sharing with them would only make them feel overpreocuppied and maybe guilty, if it did happen, even if there's nothing they can do... It's really a fine line, because we need support and we need the people who care about us to know we are not okay.
Although, it feels like some of them would prefer not to know, sometimes, yk? I feel like a lot of people just are polite or offer help out of habit, but when it really comes down to it...
They are nowhere to be seen. I just avoid the disappointment, then. But then it becomes really isolating, because when I don't feel well I don't get out of the house and don't make an effort to see them, but they don't either, so it's like we were never friends. It's really lonely. And it's even worse when I do meet them and have to pretend everything is fine and I can be a functional human being that is there to chit-chat over stupid stuff while my life is in chaos. It gets tiring.
Sorry for the rant, I have no advice as I'm in the same situation and with no clue what to do.
Just wanna let yk I hope things get better for you.