Things i wish i could have said (releasing stuff)

If i could tell you anything i wish i didnt have to take this path. Lets stop pretending the distance hasnt been growing, we used to be together all the time now we are strangers in a room. We all make choices i dont fault you for those decisions while it kills me inside this has been looming over us for so long. My role isnt the friend who needs to reach out all the time, to engage and support people to get nothing back keep the group going. One line responses, putting video games first, and whatever else is a choice you made. Not really being into my interest yet not attempting at least to care when i have done so for you also a choice. Actions have effects. I got waay too dependant, too close which is on me. Twelve years of ups downs, joys..here we are going on two years on an increasingly fall apart foundation. Ive told you how i feel twice now i am taking me time whether it will be permanent or not is up in the air.