What to be friends?
@Whyme3112
Hey, this probably seems strange 😅
but I saw your messages in the group chat but it was an hour later so I wasn’t sure if you were still on.
It seems like you and I might have some stuff in common and I was wondering if you wanted to be friends?
No worries if you would rather not! 😄
@whyme3112
i hope you had a good thanksgiving!
@inventiveKitten4821
Thanks.. I hope your Thanksgiving went well :)
(Although I don't really celebrate it. But I do love Christmas)
@inventiveKitten4821
My classes are finally getting over this week. Cuz I have semester end exams coming up towards end of the 2nd week of December.
I have one class of an hour everyday this week. And I just have to go to college for just that. But I finally feel a little less stressed cuz it's not so hectic anymore.
How are things going with you? I hope you're feeling better than before since you said you fell sick..
@whyme3112
Thats really good to hear. I’m glad you are finally getting some relief.
i wish you luck on your exams!
I am feeling better, thanks for checking :)
I'm mostly just working on Christmas presents lately.
what is your favorite thing about Christmas?
@inventiveKitten4821
I like the decorations.. everywhere.. the Christmas celebrations. I do love making presents.
I didn't do much tho. I just made a crochet jellyfish for my friend. It was nice.
How was your Christmas?
@whyme3112
i hope your doing good
@whyme3112
i haven’t heard from you in a while. I really hope you are doing ok…
@inventiveKitten4821
Hey. Yeah.. it's been a while. I was busy with semester end exams and just watching stuff like movies and series. I'm just hoping I'll pass this semester. Hasn't been a good one for me. But I'm doing good.
How have you been tho?
I hope you are well.
@inventiveKitten4821
Happy New Year!! :)
Hope we go through this year happier and succeed in what ever we wish and make them come true.
@whyme3112
Happy New Year’s!
I wish us luck in this upcoming year. I hope we will both find happiness throughout the year.
I hope you pass this semester as well!
I'm glad to hear you had a good Christmas. Mine was good as well.
it was really good to hear from you!
@inventiveKitten4821
Thank you too.
So, the new semester just started. Got back to eating lunch alone. Tho I had gotten used it before the Christmas holidays. Now I'm back to feeling bad about it. I guess I need more time to get used to eating alone and not feel bad about it. Cuz I feel like that loneliness kinda teary is visible when people look at me. For instance, today while I was eating, I was on a call with my mom then I went back to going through social media. And later I saw two people whom I talk to. They were have lunch. They were walking by my table and at one point idk y I got so anxious and scared that they'll see right through that sad lonely thing. Idk.. I just hope I get used to this again.
The classes were fine I guess. Cuz the professors are still teaching. No assignments or tests yet. So good for now.
How's new year so far for you?
@whyme3112
I'm sorry about that. Loneliness is one of the worst feelings. My new year hasn’t had the greatest start but hopefully that means it can only get better.
I’ve been feeling angry at everything lately. The world, my family, my past choices. I just hope that my life isn’t too far gone that I can’t improve it.
I hate being positive all the time. I hate it so much. But I feel like I have to be. I’m alway the person to tell my siblings that it will all be ok. I’m the therapist friend to my friends and yet I feel like I don’t have that person. Or at least I didn’t. I am really glad that you agreed to be friends.
I don’t mind being positive with you because I know I can be upset too. Even if you don’t care about my life it’s nice to have someone I can vent to without worrying that their perception of me will change.
I’m sorry, I just went on a rant.
I hope that lunches get better for you. And I hope that someone will notice you not for you feeling lonely but because they want to be friends with you. I hope this year will surround you with amazing people you can call your friends.
@inventiveKitten4821
Thanks a lot. It really means so much to me.
And it's ok. You can rant all you want here. I get that. It feels like you just can't be the way you want to be because of everything.. I always thought about that.. the therapist friend. I used to be like that to my friend I told you about. But now she has a partner and I'm just someone she knows. Just like with everyone else. The world feels like everyone's feeling lonely but they are not alone.. like everyone seems to have someone to go to or rely on but us.. ah.. but you're right. I'm glad I can come here, and that I can talk about it with you. I've seen people make friends on here but I never did before, it wasn't much helpful, cuz I had bad experiences with listeners as well. And the ones who did help never talked back again. Like I never existed there. And as said, my situation irl ain't any better either. But I'm glad that you're my friend. That I finally have someone to talk to like this. Thank you too.
Hmm for me, if I'm feeling sad, and I try to fake a smile through it. It gets all heavy in the chest, the way people talk about. And then at one point, I just burst out crying in front of whoever is with me, alone, even if they are not my friend, but someone who knows who I am. It just sucks.. especially the interactions after, with that person.
I really wish your year gets better too.. hopefully it will be peaceful. So far, I haven't really gotten anywhere.. I've gotten into self depreciation lately.. everything seems to just go down at uni as well as at home. But nonetheless.. there's nothing I can do than to just hope. Hopefully we get through this year safe. And like you said, hope that it eventually gets better..
@whyme3112
sorry I haven’t been on here in a little while. Life has been crazy to say the least.
I'm sorry to hear you haven’t been doing the best lately.
How has uni been? Have lunches gotten any better?
Have you crochet anything recently?
@inventiveKitten4821
Oh it's ok.. I haven't been much on here either..
Yeah.. lunch has been comparitively better.. I have been sitting with a group which usually sits in the same cafe.. but if they go somewhere else I don't really bother.. they don't invite but.. we just sit if we happen to see each other..
Well.. I've fallen sick actually.. got a bad cold.. stuffy runny nose.. and academically not so good.. I haven't been able to do assignments in time.. but yeah.. I'm just doing what I can..
Hope things turn out well for you..
@inventiveKitten4821
Hmm I did crochet a fox, i.e arctic fox, of white wool .. I took the pattern of a bunny and attached a fox head and tail.. ppl still think it's a bunny tho.. but I like it..
Have you crocheted anything?
@whyme3112
im so sorry it has taken me so long to respond.
I am glad to hear you’ve been sitting with people at lunch. I hope that they start inviting you but remember that even if they don’t it doesn’t mean that they don’t want to hang out with you. Sadly people don’t always think to make their enjoyment of others known.
i hope your classes get better!
im sure your fox is cute I crocheted a little teddy bear for my nephew.
I thought I was doing ok but the everything fell to pieces. That’s at least what it feels like. My whole family really should be in therapy but instead i am the makeshift therapist. I’m just tired I guess…
have you ever put your hopes on something and said if that happens your life will be perfect? I know it’s not healthy but I do it. I just wish for it to happen because surely it would improve my life at least a little, right?
anyways, I hope you are doing better