I wish I could tell everybody that...

I literally just signed up, hello everyone!

I just want to say, its so hard being in a relationship when you are mentally ill. I really feel so alone in this. I also noticed its not talked about a lot. I mean I have no way of uunderstanding how to make it right and it's killing me. My up and down moods. I just feel like soon enough he will be gone and I hate the thought. I can't seem to make it roght. How do you make it right? How do you do anything? All i think will be left if his resentment towards me and im so so tired of trying to be "fixed" when I am just not!

That I am not doing as good as they think I am. If they only knew what was going on on the inside.

The smile I have worn for awhile is false. That inside I

I do not want to go on holiday with my mum next week as i find holidays so stressful. There is a lot of packing and planning to do. When i get back there is the stress of doing all the washing and getting bassc supplies of food in such as bread and milk. I do not think that holidays are relaxing at all. They are just a waste of money and effort.

Mindfulness exercises have a way of calming me back to reality

Depression is ruining my life

There's always someone to reach out to. It only takes a second

I wish I could tell everybody that I am still struggling with selfharm and that I still have suicidal thoughts.

How much I love and appreciate them and how sorry I am for being such a burden because of the pain I'm in.

I am not at all who they think I am.