I wish I could tell everybody that...
I wish I could tell everyone that I'm struggling. That I need to be single for awhile. That I need space. But that I can't have too much or else I might hurt myself. I want to be okay and happy for the people around me, but idk what to do.
I wish I could tell people who I really am. How I really am. I wish it was easy to explain and I wish that they could understand me better. I'm not a mean person, I'm extremely loving and caring. But I'm also a 0-10 kind of girl. Nothing in between. I'm either really happy, or really sad, or really angry. And I'm not very good at hiding my feelings, either.
But, the way I work, I'm not easily made to feel any of these things quickly. It takes a bit to actually get me angry or sad. And the one time I get mad, the people who see it just immediately blow it out of proportion. "She must be angry all the time. She must have problems. Mrglrglblarghpffft." No one wants to remember all the good I do. All the things I do because I'm eager to please. I'm so willing to help.
I don't know if it made enough sense.
I wish I could tell everyone that I'm not okay deep down. I really need help. I might feel fine, and I might say I'm "good," but I've been broken for far too long. I wish I could reach out and get some help for my emotional issues. I wish I could talk about my "boyfriend" or my death wish, or even the fact that I still think about self-harm often. I wish I could vent to someone and know for certain that they won't tell anyone.
That I am not o f***ing kay and that I am a lesbian
I have tremendous love to give, like push it in them and let them know i'm a person to trust and talk to.
I wish everybody knew that I keep to myself so much and I stopped talking to all my friends because of my social anxiety I wish I could be friends with them 😔
@mylifeaseva I'm always sad and I don't know what to do
I am happy but im not.
That I am struggling as bad as I am every single day.
I wish I could tell people that i try really hard, and that I'm rarely doing as well as i look. I wish I could tell people about the pain I've endured, and that I need love and support.