Today, I want to........
Today, I want to........ [fill in this sentence with a goal or task you want to do today]
Just choke my mom out. It sounds harsh, but I'm getting tired of her. Almost everything she says doesn't sit well with me. She is the worst support system ever and I wish I never told her my problems because ever since then she drives me crazy. Claiming to be there for me that she won't judge but as days go by she makes comments that make me want to kill her. Those comments to her are innocent, but I can point out every hint of venom.
@Humbly4hippy3 Yesterday, I had a similar issue with my own mother though I'll admit there wasn't much in the way of criticism from her. I was so tense at one point that my hand started shaking uncontrollably becuase of an issue I had to straighten out due to a confused attempt on her part to 'help.' My taco fell apart in my hand and I couldn't help but laugh at that point and realized she felt almost helpless becuase there wasn't anything she could do to ease my emotional suffering. Our mothers are connected to us in a way no other person will ever be and not having the ability to take away our pain causes them to suffer too. Some handle it well and others don't but I do believe most wish more than anything they could make us smile again.
Today, I want to be brave enough to go job hunting. Social anxiety is a pain. :(
Have enough energy to work on the classwork I have incompletes in, and peace that I'm working my hardest. Anxiety and depression at the same time doesn't cancel things out. They just make the problem worse.
I had that problem I took my forensics. Test during my senior year plenty of anixety and depression and of course hearing about someone dead a story about it is sad and scary 😓 @birdclaws
hide. and continue to hide. maybe if i close my eyes this will all go away. maybe the health problems and pain will go away. maybe if i stop going to all these doctors things will change. if i stay in my room in my chair then i dont have to explain my oxygen and braces to doctors and others.
@beachlover5008 I didn't up vote your post because hiding wouldn't help you though I understand the need to pull away from the world but for different reasons in my case. I will pray that your suffering is eased and that you are able to walk in the world again. It is all I have left but it is yours.
Be happy
Get a lot of work done!
find the strength to keep going. It's so dark in here but I know there's a door somewhere out into the light and want more than anything to find it.
Spread the love around and get some work done
Create A new and positive direction for my life. THINKING positive and good thoughts on purpose to redirect the sails of my mind on a newly charted course towards a brighter horizon that I can try to create MYSELF.
Do some homework
Finish deciding what to get my ex-boyfriend for his birthday because his family doesn't get him gifts
Try not to have any breakdowns
