What Made You Smile Today?

I made an awesome veggie curry :-)

When I got back home I watched an episode of family guy. Cracks me up.

My little boy started calling me mummy instead of mumma!

i was looking inside of me and that made me smile, it was a happy smile to my innerself

not a damn thing. i wish i were dead. never felt this stuck before. marinating in lifeless agony. no smiles. no tears. lethargy of the spirit, paralysis of the soul. im hamstrung morning to night, hung suspended in the void of meaningless meditations. adrift. dozing through the stagnant struggle my heart beating bleeding begging for a touch of light. nearly senseless in this soporific sickness of thought and feeling. frozen in the unwavering stasis staggering and then collapsing again. prostrate or supine, in search of some small reason to get up again. i come up empty. will i ever move again. will i be revived from this invincible deadness that has sucked the vitality from my veins all of me vacated in the utter dryness of despair. depression reigns supreme. im suffocating. stick a syringe into my head let my brain secrete the poison or electroshock me back into violent fluorescent consciousness.

when will this eternal night end? when shall the light at last find my eyes?

soon... soon... or never.

I talked with a new friend who was genuinely interested in helping me uncover new opportunities.

Hanging with the women from my meetup group.

I saw my highschool and elementary friends while going to school. We're all going the same direction so we went together, chat a bit. It was nice. :)

That my ex is supportive of me for getting therapy, going to group meetings, joining a few meet up groups, and going to the gym.

Getting a good score on my chair placement test for band on trumpet