Can someone tell me what I have?
I suffer every day from this kind of images on my mind that make me feel very desperate and also very ashamed, its almost painful I always close my eyes but it only lasts about 1 or 2 seconds and it goes away. And it happens a lot of times through the day. The weird part is that this images are mostly just stupid things that I have done that are not even shameful, things like something I said that maybe wasnt very funny but definitely should not make me feel embarrased at all. Sometimes the images are things that happened when I was a little kid, like why should I feel embarrased of something that I did as a little kid? And even sometimes the images are things that dont even happend, like im driving and I just imagine that I crashed and that gives me the exact same feeling of great embarrasment where I even need to close my eyes. Its really weird and some days it makes me tired because it happens very often. I have never heard of anything like this but maybe someone in here can help me or at least guide me to make some investigations myself. Thank you.
@ACP2015
I think it'd be a good idea to talk to a professional about this. Doing your own research might give you the wrong idea.
@ACP2015 I am not an expert, but it seems to me those images could be automatic thoughts. If you search the Internet you'll find a lot of information about them.
The feeling of desperation and shame might be an old feeling that you had at some time in the past, and now it's replaying over and over in your mind because in some way you need to deal with it. The original event might even have been forgotten. But that's just my guess. A therapist will know all about this kind of thing and how to overcome it, especially a CBT therapist.
Charlie
