Eating Disorder

I have anorexia. No one knows it. I don't eat except when forced and exercise a lot. The worst is I don't want to heal, but I realized even though I don't want to heal, I have a problem. And that's why I'm here. I want someone who can help me through it. Someone I can open up to and share my thoughts and feelings. I want someone who will help me over come. I want a listener than will benefit me and actually help me and not just say eat more. I would prefer someone who has been in the same boat o have with anorexia. If you think you could help please comment or message me.