Who DARE to Support Me??

Hi...it has been a long time I'm seeking listener that match me. It took a lot of courage for me to decide to post on forum.

With Avoidant Personality, it could be hard to seek support on this site. Since this site motto is 'Someone to TALK to', so the listeners on this site will expecting just a talk from me, and they're just listening which is very difficult for me to initiate talk and expressing my feelings. A lot of time I was blocked for not talking. I was just scare to talk and the listeners are not giving me enough assurance to open up. I know it was my fault, why don't I just talk so that they can listen, right?

Some of the situations that will scare me off:
1. Listener: Hi
Me : Hi
Listener: Hi
(Listener is not giving enough friendly greetings)

2. Listener: Hello,
What do you want to talk about?
Tell me
(The word 'talk' and 'tell' triggering me because I'm not good at talking)

And in the middle of conversation, the questions/statements that I don't like to be ask:
1. Do you have friends?
Do you have family?
Why don't you talk to them?
Why don't you hang out with them?

2. Have you seen doctor/therapist/professional about your problem?
You should get professional support.
Here's the link if you wanna get professional support: .....

3. Why?

4. You should ........

5. I'm sorry to hear that. (Without any further comment)

6. No you're not. (Without giving the further explanation)

So I'm here to seek support from listener, not only 'listen'er, but also 'support'er. I prefer to getting support from same gender (female) which is older than me (>30) for a long term support. You must have highly patience because I can be so boring and difficult to deal with. You must find initiative to make me talk more, like asking questions, and knows how to build rapport and create bond to me first. Having caring attitude, emphaty and reassure will make me feel more comfortable.

Oh yeah, my issues;
Depression,
Grieving,
Unemployment,
Social anxiety,
Loneliness.

If you DARE to take this challenge, you're welcome to pm me.

# I'm sorry my English is like rubbish, that's why I hate exposing myself in forum.