"A Stranger in My Own Time"
Hello,
Perhaps a voice isn't always weakness, and silence isn't always strength. I arrived here not in search of rescue, but because I grew weary of silently playing a role I never believed in.
I feel like a stranger to a time that treats understanding as a luxury and depth as a burden. I observe the world as if behind thick glass—seeing everything, yet touching nothing. I read people with ease, yet remain unreadable to most.
I'm not looking for comfort, nor do I believe in ready-made solutions. I just want a space where I can speak without being reduced, without having to explain myself endlessly.
If you’ve ever known what it’s like to feel disconnected—from everything, from everyone, even from yourself at times… I’m here, listening
@lavenderHuman3495
Salutations, you have eloquent words. Mine may not be as understandable as yours were.
I understand the feeling of disconnect, like there is a glass wall between you and someone or something else. While a do feel a disconnect between people like they never truly see me but a blurry or false image, I more often feel disconnected from my emotions. Or perhaps I feel as if I don't have real emotions? I am not sure, it's a tough thing to figure out especially by yourself. Sometimes it feels like I am out in a tiny glass jar and sealed up, then a bigger jar is filled with my emotions (real or fake) and the jar I am in is dropped in the bigger one. Sometimes I can deceive myself into believing I have emotions pressing myself again the glass, but in the end I always end up with times feeling hollow and solely logical. Like you said I am generally very good at reading people, they just make sense for the most part, but it never feels like a genuine relationship or connection.
I can't say I fully understand what you experience or how you see the world, but I do feel my own version of disconnect, however similar or different to your's.
I honestly don't know if anything I said is helpful or even intriguing but I wanted to say it to someone somewhere, so please accept my selfish ramble.
I found your post very interesting and relatable, thank you for sharing! 🩵
ur words are far from rambling. What you said deeply resonated with me—it’s as if you described parts of me I’ve never found the right words for. That overlap between awareness and disconnection, between understanding others while feeling unseen… I know it well. Thank you for sharing. Your presence and words meant more to me than you might realize :)
@lavenderHuman3495
I am glad you found comfort in my words. I have spend many hours just laying in bed trying to logic out the best explanation for how it feels that is the best one I have for myself so far.
A presence that that understands even the tiniest part of one's self is one of the most powerful, influential, and especially comforting things you can experience. I hope I was able to do that a little bit.
Welcome to 7cups I haven't actually been here long a month or two at most I think. But still it is wonderful to meet such a insightful human such as you! Best wishes and love! 🩵
@7Bear7 hugs you tightly 💖 I hope you know that there are many people here who love you and care about you, I'm one of those people 💖 you have a friend in me🙂 hugs you tightly 💖
@Tinywhisper11
I do occasionally disconnect? (Not sure that's the right words?) From reality and people and other things. There can be times I am laying in bed so deep in my mind I forgot people exist. But peoples love, especially their acts that show their love make part of who I am, so you could say your (and others) love is never truly forgotten even when my brain forgets. ??? Maybe I am just rambling tho, arts after midnight and I got a small headache ???
I know many many people love me, I especially know you do cuz you're so good at telling and showing people!!!! 🩵
@lavenderHuman3495 you have a truly beautiful and authentic way of expressing things. Your post resonated with me, thank you 🥰
@lavenderHuman3495 I've felt like a stranger to the world for a long time, then opening up here at cups and listening to others I realized I'm not alone I'm not that different🙂💖 I hope you find your safe place here with us 💖sometimes the best thing anyone can do is just listen🙂💖 gives you a giant tiny hug 💗 welcome to 7 cups sweetie 💖
