Be Honest

@lovelyJoy7479

how are you feeling,are you okay?

Tbh, I try to be better, and I try to focus on that now but you know sometimes ppl around you don't make you  be okay or give you some space to breath. 

Are you happy? 

No 😅but I can't complain tbh, because even through all that I thank God for everything. 

Are you tired?

Kinda

Are you in need of a listener to help you?

No thanks, but I feel more happy and feel OK when I help others actually. 

But what about you if I can ask!? 

@lovelyJoy7479

Im good, thank you for asking , happy? Yes 🥰 but tired, I'm just exhausted at the minute, catch catch up with myself 💜💕

Honestly, i keep getting worse. What was initially just a mild feeling of loneliness is slowly but surely turning into something darker and darker... the fact that the changes are slow and steady makes people around me to just think that i'm changing, not that something is happening. And i'm not the kind to make people see that i'm having issues. I seek help when i know for sure i can get it. Otherwise, i prefer licking my wounds in a corner without anybody seeing and hoping that it'll be enough... but it's not... to ask your questions about how do i feel... not good. There's a lot to say. And i have no one to say it to.

@lovelyJoy7479

I want you to be honest with me, how are you feeling, are you okay? Are you happy? Are you tired? Are you in need of a listener to help you? We care we want to help you

are you okay?
Lately I have been battling my feelings and well, looking OK on the outside but I feel like I'm slowly dying on the inside. I sit here typing all this and do nothing but fight back tears. My heart has been so heavy lately.

Are you happy?
No where near being happy.

Are you tired?
Very much so, My racing , over thinking mind is just exhausting.

Are you in need of a listener to help you?
I though I was doing OK, until I reached out to a Listener, I know they were just giving me some advice but that advice has made things worse for my mind. By the time we were done, I was going to loose my heart, for it wanted to jump out of my chest (Massive Panic Attack), I wanted to pray to the porcelain god and made my anxiety skyrocket.
I'd like to get another opinion but am now afraid too.

I thought typing out my problems would help but I am not sure. I still miss that physical connection of talking to someone, getting that facial expression, reaction and non-judgmental comments. But that is the reason I am here because I no longer have that one true friend i can depend and lean on. 💔  🥹

Probably about 35-40% of where I would like to be. Maybe I have unrealistic expectations. I want to connect with people in a positive way. Doing my best. Thanks for all the support on here. This place is a very encouraging space! Grateful for u!

@lovelyJoy7479 no

@lovelyJoy7479

@lovelyJoy7479 I’m fine right now. Just existing calmly.