Brain Dump Challenge
This will be super healing and cathartic for all of you <3
Challenge: Brain dump everything you’re struggling with. Either here, or in a separate post (and let us know when you post it). Let it all out. Write it in prose, or poetry, or just random words strung together. It doesn’t have to be pretty, it doesn’t have to have correct punctuation or grammar or capitalization. It just needs to be your soul on paper… Your emotions and thoughts, your pain and struggles and yearning and loss, all written out. It loses its power once it’s shared. We’re family here; you’re safe here. Share it all, and feel safe in the knowledge that we will cradle your pain in our hearts and cry with you, and we will gather around you and show you love that surpasses any language or tongue. <3
I will add a taglist, but this challenge is open to absolutely everyone, new or old. <3 Feel free to tag people if you’d like <3
@jesusredeemedme2425 struggling with a situation where someone said that you need to be understanding of whatever decision they make, need time to think. they end up initiating conversation after you sent a text, they start talking to you as if nothing happened, never bring up anything from last month. so you ask them hey you told me last month that I needed to be understanding about whatever decision you make and I was wondering what that is? thanku and they basically go straight into you're fine for now, just don't blow up my phone ok? my girl is uncomfortable with your texts. meanwhile you're thinking what did I even do that was 1. uncomfortable 2. I had no idea a relationship existed so how was I supposed to know that I was doing something wrong. I was told nothing was new life wise and 3. how does this girl even know anything about me texting? basically struggling with the fact that I was unfairly accused when I had no idea about my friends relationship status, 0 receipts of how I have been blowing up his phone when I haven't said *** for an entire month, talking to me like nothing ever happened for 2 days till almost 2am, let alone being told last month about some decision that he failed to even bring up in a conversation. some might say why did u respond when he reached out? because I thought hmm maybe he is going to have a conversation about what he told me last month, maybe I should give him a chance. so I did. and he never brought up, so I had to cause I was tired of being left in the dark, but asking was a waist cause he didn't really say my decision is or this is what I thought about
@amusingWest5360 forgot to add..that I gave him what he wanted understanding wise by saying " oh you have a gf, I will leave, I don't want to make anyone uncomfortable hope u have a great rest of your week/month. " he wrote again after i sent that message but I ignored and deleted. cause I felt that there was nothing more to be said.
Tysm for this challenge. I’ll try to do it😅😅
Boosting <3
@jesusredeemedme2425 missing my love, my new year bingo and to do list are freaking me out, my back and neck hurts but i´m too lazy to stretch and i feel too hot
New year bingo?
@jesusredeemedme2425 yep. I am so close and yet so far away. I still have so much missing and am a bit overwhelmed
Like what? And what are the consequences if you don’t finish?
@jesusredeemedme2425 basically, it's this thing that was a trend to make for new year instead of resolutions. If I don't complete it, absolutely nothing will happen, will just feel bad about myself 😂
Currently not done points:
- Read the first 15 books from the Bible (on page 394 out of the planned 813, but not wanting to read too much at once as I like giving it a little time to sink in)
- Plan a day trip
- Clean up a specific mess pile (worked on it like 2x already but it's a syzyphian task)
- Knit or crochet something (I have a sweather in progress)
- Finish my language learning app
- Learn a family recipe (sort of in progress but not fully done yet)
- Replace the blinds
- Complete 4 short or one long course (I Think I have like 2 out of 4 rn?)
- Learn a new chore (in progress, I know the theory but need to successfully do it in practice like 2 times or so)
- Go to confessions 5 times (I have 2, 1 will be before Christmas, still need to push 2 in)
- Try the laser hair remover we got like 2 years ago lol
- Get to page 300 in my polish learning book
Things I can't really do something about rn due to schedule or timing:
- Participate in a Christmas gift donation
- Finish a sewing project
- Have a BBQ
- Wisdom tooth out (already scheduled for October)
- Participate in a church event (no events currently since it's vacation time)
- Finish an art project (no space rn, would need to clean up+ will be almost constantly at work till mid September due to school season)
- Savings goal (can't really do much about it except not buying crap and being smart with my money, but most likely won't be done because I set the bar very high on purpose)
Other stuff that keeps making me stressed:
- I'm not even halfway with my grandmas Christmas present tablecloth that I need to embroider
- Send the last chapter and epilogue notes for the beta reading thing
- Room clean haunting
I think that's all for now but my brain is like WE ARE NOT GOING TO MANAGE. Also, I need to take it easy because I had devouring issues at night that are still not okay. So can't really jump right into something complicated today as I need to rest what is freaking me out more. I have only tomorrow free after that and then will have only a day here and there till mid September. Yay
Girrrrllll do you even SEE how much you’ve accomplished??? How much we envy you about what you’ve done? How much more you’ve done than you realize???
I am so proud of you <3
@jesusredeemedme2425 really? 😭 I feel like I do absolutely nothing and am being an imposter who just sounds like doing a lot but in reality not getting anything done 😅 especially when I see everyone around me having their lives together and then there is me, pointing a stick at the ringing phone, challenging it to a fight in a clown costume and everyone looking at me like yeah, someone call the zoo 😅
Bro. I have zero goals rn. I come home after work and read and watch Netflix and sleep. Just compared to me alone, you’re running CIRCLES around me <3
@jesusredeemedme2425 that sounds cozy, I wish I could relax like that 😍
Wanna set a random goal or two and panic burn out together? 😁 I made a new thread where I panic over my tasks, you can come join me if you want, we can be a stressed mess together 😁
It’s really not that relaxing…
Lol I don’t need more panic burnout in my life rn XD But please tag me in your post! <3
@jesusredeemedme2425 fair enough. If you ever feel like joining my spiral, let me know 😁 tagging you in a second
Did you see my last post? Trust me, I was in a MASSIVE spiral of my own last night lol
@jesusredeemedme2425 yessss. We can always ride the spiral of existential dread of self imposed deadlines with one of my cups besties 😁
Lol awesome! I just have the whole “I’d prefer not to continue existing this way but don’t have the bandwidth or motivation to get better” thing :(
@jesusredeemedme2425 it's okay to not have the bandwidth to do things. Sometimes, surviving in itself can be a challenge, so don't beat yourself up over choosing to rest ❤️
Like I’m doing now??? Hehe. Sprawled on my bed reading and on my phone lol
@sadcat I do this too.. I'm not the only one?!?!
I struggle with shame and catching feelings for girls. I hate it. I feel dirty and shameful from religious teachings. Sometimes I wonder if I hate myself
@jesusredeemedme2425
As of right now I feel I am doing better than I was doing, because I am on a medication but I am still disabled and need help managing emotions and stress, I don't feel I am as severe as I once was but sometimes I break. My mom passed away 4 years ago it feels far too recent, my dad has epilepsy so he is in the hospital a lot my fiance and I take care of him and that can be very difficult because of how he is even without the seizures, we are all very close friends but sometimes I need to vent, ya know? I am gonna be starting a job soon and I am scared about not being able to do well because I also have seizures and no transportation I walk there and sometimes it's very hot or very cold and I am very worried about how I will do. I am getting tested for autism and fibromyalgia soon. my main stress source right now is feeling like I wont be good enough to work, and my cat needs more care than we thought and we don't have much money so that's another reason I am stressed is i gotta wait.
@jesusredeemedme2425
pain self harm alone crazy
staff abuse used
and worthless
wants to be someone who is loved'
wants to be the one who isnt what i am
(above)
I feel it… I’m so sorry :’(
How you doing, friend? <3
Im sad a lot and tired and dont have humor and dont like other ppl much
Except for the humor, sounds like how I feel a lot
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I’m adding a taglist to start, but this post is open to absolutely everyone! <3
@jesusredeemedme2425
I'm wishing for an end to this rain, hard to stay cheerful 💚🤗
Hey, I bet the plants are loving it <3
@jesusredeemedme2425
Awesome post, I'll respond to this tomorrow, i must have a bite to eat and get ready for my nightshift 😉
